I scrambled into a sitting position, breathing hard and scannin the space. My room was dark and silent, the curtains over the window letting in a sliver of moonlight that draped across my tangled comforter. My panicked breathing was the only thing that broke the quiet of the early morning.
I looked across the room and saw Linh curled up in her bed, her hair covering part of her face as the silver ends shone in the light from outside. Relief flooded through me, and I flopped back onto my mattress, trying to steady my breathing as my heart refused to stop pounding.
In and out, in and out...
Images still floated around my head like tiny pieces of the puzzles my mother used to try and make us do on rainy days. Linh was standing in your room--not this one, I realized. Our old one back at Choralmere, the one with the balcony. And she wasn't standing either--she was on her knees. There were shadows everywhere, and screaming. Linh was screaming as the shadowflux hit her, and her cries mixed with the sound of breaking bones. She was looking at someone, tears running down her face as she shouted something at them.
In and out, in and out...
Me. She was looking at me. I was the one doing this to her, ignoring her pleas to stop.
I gritted my teeth against the slef-loathing and nausea that swept through me at the thought, and gave up on keeping calm. I had to get out of the dark.
I crept through the hallway down to the kitchen, determined not to wake the others. this was my problem, not theirs.
I snapped my fingers before I even reached the doorway, and the kitchen flooded with light. I needed it. As I leaned against the counter, leaning my head back to stare at the ceiling, I made a silent vow not to go back to sleep. It wasn't worth depriving Linh of her much-needed rest as well, should I wake up again.
Was I afraid of the dark? Not exactly...I was just afraid of what I could do with it.
When I was younger, I used to be terrified of being by myself with the lights off. That's why my parents loved locking me in my room. Linh would go sleep with them, and I'd be all alone. Safe to say, I never got much sleep those nights.
And then I manifested, and it was like my worst nightmare and my dream come true. I could finally control what had scared me for so long, but that was also the problem. I had to connect with it. And it wasn't long before I found out being a Shade wasn't exactly viewed as a good thing.
Linh's voice jerked my out of my thoughts. My sister stood in the doorway to the kitchen, one hand on the frame, the colors of her pajamas muted in the darkness of the hallway.
"Are you okay?" she asked, and I considered lying. But I didn't have to say anything--nothing I could've told her would've convinced Linh I was all right. So, she came over and wrapped her arms around me, speaking into my shoulder. "I'm sorry."
"It's not your fault," I said immediately, putting my arms around her as well. I'd said that to her so many times, it was second nature now. "I'll be fine."
Linh pulled away and smiled at me, but it was the sad smile that was so familiar on her face. It was the smile that I had seen every time she looked at me during our time at Exillium, or whenever our parents were scolding us for something we couldn't control. It was the expression I had come to associate with my sister--a simple need to comfort, not caring what she was going through, but unable to hide it completely.
Linh was the one that our parents wanted. She was the one Wylie wanted. She was the one that had never left.
So where did that leave me?
Sorry that was so long, lol. But just imagining Tam having nightmares about his time with the Neverseen, or feeling guilty for leaving...*sniff* STAY STRONG TAM
That was amazing! I love that it was in first person, which is refreshing since all the books are always third person view. I also like the backstory given! I absolutely love Tam, too. He's one of my favorite characters!
Personally, I think Blur is related to Jensi. Jensi said he comes form a long line of phasers, and Blur is described as smalle rthan Sophie thought he would be. And Shannon has a thing for introducing characters, making you forget about them then making them super iportant again (cough Marella cough cough)
And we need another Forkle reveal. BADLY!!! This is getting ridiculous!!!!!
Idea: the preface begins cryptically, mentioning Sophie being horribly betrayed by someone she thought was a friend. Teaser quotes can be released mentioning a betrayal, but not who's. And then it turns out that it's someone else's betrayal, not Tam. Everyone thinks Tam joins the Neverseen when it's actually not. Who else? Well, it could be someone she trusts a lot like Elwin, Terik or Oralie, though I don't think so. Maybe one of the Mentors, or more interestingly, Cadfael (he joins their side after seeing the Neverseen run like cowards but rejoins them for any reason) or Bo, Tarina, Nubiti, or even Flori! Tarina or Flori would be my favorite guesses. I've always been a bit suspicious of Flori, idk why...
You know what, it’ll be amazing if that happens. I wouldn’t put it past Shannon to do that. After all, the teaser she released about the familiar voice and the shadows moving made everyone believe Tam was evil. Foreshadowing or just a coincidence?