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    • 2nd!

      Actually my computer is glitching so I am probably 4th or 5th but hey why not

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    • nope you're first

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    • Anyways, I just wanted to say that my triggers are related to public speaking, not having a plan, and not having enough information on something. 

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    • Immahumblebrag wrote:
      nope you're first

      yAy!

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    • Project Sokeefe wrote:
       Anyways, I just wanted to say that my triggers are related to public speaking, not having a plan, and not having enough information on something. 
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    • Thanks for making a second thread.

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    • Lexbexrex wrote:
      Thanks for making a second thread.

      yeah thanks :)

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    • np!

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    • I still can't get those trypophobia images out of my head....

      what do you guys do when you need to get your mind off things? Like, to calm down?

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    • Once I searched up trypophobia. It was terrible.

      To calm down, I usually read. It works most of the time.

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    • Hia sorry i could not find the thread

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    • Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      Once I searched up trypophobia. It was terrible.

      To calm down, I usually read. It works most of the time.

      Yeah, try not to make it a habit to search your phobias. *shudder*

      And I will go read! Some nice confident rap music and a KotLC book... perfect pair! lolz. Ok baiii

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    • What is trypophobia?

      Sorry if i am being rude or triggering painful topics but I would just like to know.

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    • yeah i want to know to. 

      Without looking it up..

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    • I looked it up, it's a fear of holes and bumps.

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    • Lexbexrex wrote:
      I looked it up, it's a fear of holes and bumps.

      ohhhh ok thanks

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    • 204.195.19.176 wrote:
      I still can't get those trypophobia images out of my head....

      what do you guys do when you need to get your mind off things? Like, to calm down?

      Listen to music. Do a hobby/acticity to take your mind off like yoga, meditation, art, music, reading, etc.

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    • This is great. I ended up in the hospital for the secound time this month

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    • 172.91.64.5 wrote:
      This is great. I ended up in the hospital for the secound time this month

      oh no!

      are you okay?

      What happened?

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    • 172.91.64.5 wrote:
      This is great. I ended up in the hospital for the secound time this month

      Are you okay?

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    • MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      172.91.64.5 wrote:
      This is great. I ended up in the hospital for the secound time this month
      oh no!

      are you okay?

      What happened?

      MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS



      Well the first time is just because I have seizure. So I had to stay there for a while. I also have a problem of being dehydrated a lot. I know it doesn't sound like a bad problem but I apparently don't usually have enough water in my system so I passed out. Right now I'm hooked up to an I.V and it sucks

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    • I hope you get better soon, it seems like that would be terrible.

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    • 172.91.64.5 wrote:
      MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      172.91.64.5 wrote:
      This is great. I ended up in the hospital for the secound time this month
      oh no!

      are you okay?

      What happened?

      MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS



      Well the first time is just because I have seizure. So I had to stay there for a while. I also have a problem of being dehydrated a lot. I know it doesn't sound like a bad problem but I apparently don't usually have enough water in my system so I passed out. Right now I'm hooked up to an I.V and it sucks

      OH NO!

      THAT SOUNDS TERRIBLE!!!

      I wish i could help you or something!

      FANDOM HAS GOT YOUR BACK!

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    • MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      172.91.64.5 wrote:
      MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      172.91.64.5 wrote:
      This is great. I ended up in the hospital for the secound time this month
      oh no!

      are you okay?

      What happened?

      MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS


      Well the first time is just because I have seizure. So I had to stay there for a while. I also have a problem of being dehydrated a lot. I know it doesn't sound like a bad problem but I apparently don't usually have enough water in my system so I passed out. Right now I'm hooked up to an I.V and it sucks

      OH NO!

      THAT SOUNDS TERRIBLE!!!

      I wish i could help you or something!

      FANDOM HAS GOT YOUR BACK!

      omg that's horrible!!!!!!!!!!!! I also have a problem with being dehydrated because i don't drink water because- nvm

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    • Aww, that sucks, I hate hospitals. I hope you can go home soon!

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    • Im hereee

      -Bo and Ro forever

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    • MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS



      So today my kinda had to force me to eat because i hadn't eaten anything all day.

      The thing is i don't like eating. I just DON'T. idek know

      Its like i take 1 frickn bite and i'm either already full or feel like i'm about to throw up :/

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS


      So today my kinda had to force me to eat because i hadn't eaten anything all day.

      The thing is i don't like eating. I just DON'T. idek know

      Its like i take 1 frickn bite and i'm either already full or feel like i'm about to throw up :/

      I actually have the same problem

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    • My problem with eating is that I have no desire to do it. I'll have slept through beakfast or something, and skipped lunch, and I won't notice I haven't eaten in almost a day until it's five o'clock, and my stomach and head hurts from hunger and dehydration.

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    • 172.91.64.5 wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS


      So today my kinda had to force me to eat because i hadn't eaten anything all day.

      The thing is i don't like eating. I just DON'T. idek know

      Its like i take 1 frickn bite and i'm either already full or feel like i'm about to throw up :/

      I actually have the same problem

      yeah... it sucks

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    • SoKeefe 100 wrote:
      Im hereee

      -Bo and Ro forever

      Hellooooooooooo

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS


      So today my kinda had to force me to eat because i hadn't eaten anything all day.

      The thing is i don't like eating. I just DON'T. idek know

      Its like i take 1 frickn bite and i'm either already full or feel like i'm about to throw up :/

      People tell me I dont eat enough because Im "too skinny". Its like I know that I am. My friends often tease me about not knowing that it really hurts me. But one time I got super upset. me and my friends were on a social distancing bike ride, and My friend T (not going to use her full name) pointed out how another friends bike tires are super skinny. That friend thinking T was talking about her body got super mad and said "thats really mean you should never make remakrs about a persons body". Thats when I got super upset because they tell me how Im too skinny  all the time.

      Ugh sorry just needed to let that off my chest it just make me so mad

      -Josie/Bo and Ro forever

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    • Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      My problem with eating is that I have no desire to do it. I'll hav slept through beakfast or something, and skipped lunch, and I won't notice I haven't eaten in almost a day until it's five o'clock, and my stomach and head hurts from hunger and dehydration.

      the same thing happens to me

      But i don't sleep through breakfast

      I don' even like sleeping

      so yeah i don't sleep

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    • Nobody teases me for being too skinny, because I'm not that skinny. I do try to make myself weigh less, because all my friend are at least five pounds lighter than me. I've dropped one pound last I checked.

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      My problem with eating is that I have no desire to do it. I'll hav slept through beakfast or something, and skipped lunch, and I won't notice I haven't eaten in almost a day until it's five o'clock, and my stomach and head hurts from hunger and dehydration.
      the same thing happens to me

      But i don't sleep through breakfast

      I don' even like sleeping

      so yeah i don't sleep

      I keep myself up untill I fall asleep, and then my stupid brain sleeps in. I don't like sleeping in.

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    • Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      My problem with eating is that I have no desire to do it. I'll hav slept through beakfast or something, and skipped lunch, and I won't notice I haven't eaten in almost a day until it's five o'clock, and my stomach and head hurts from hunger and dehydration.
      the same thing happens to me

      But i don't sleep through breakfast

      I don' even like sleeping

      so yeah i don't sleep

      I keep myself up untill I fall asleep, and then my stupid brain sleeps in. I don't like sleeping in.

      i don't like sleeping

      i don't sleep

      its not something i need or do

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    • ^Sorry about your situation...I kinda have a different problem. I don't overeat, I'm very dehidrated, and I rarely sleep well but my mom says that I'm overweight or going to be...I mean I have average weight (not going to say what it is) though idk what her standards are. Again, I also needed to get it off my chest too.

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    • i'm sorry but you mom sounds.... RUDE. like really rude. Sorry but thats just what it sounds like

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i'm sorry but you mom sounds.... RUDE. like really rude. Sorry but thats just what it sounds like

      I would agree but that was a while ago...now she's a lot more encouraging and kinder.

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    • Project Sokeefe wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i'm sorry but you mom sounds.... RUDE. like really rude. Sorry but thats just what it sounds like
      I would agree but that was a while ago...now she's a lot more encouraging and kinder.

      is there a reason she was rude before?

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      Project Sokeefe wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i'm sorry but you mom sounds.... RUDE. like really rude. Sorry but thats just what it sounds like
      I would agree but that was a while ago...now she's a lot more encouraging and kinder.
      is there a reason she was rude before?

      She was stressed about something personal

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    • Project Sokeefe wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      Project Sokeefe wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i'm sorry but you mom sounds.... RUDE. like really rude. Sorry but thats just what it sounds like
      I would agree but that was a while ago...now she's a lot more encouraging and kinder.
      is there a reason she was rude before?
      She was stressed about something personal

      oh i get that.

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    • Ugh sorry I'm complaining but we're having noodles and peanut sauce for dinner. I hate it and everyone else in my family either loves it, likes it, or is fine with it, and they're usually spicey, which I hate as well. We have them like at least once every two weeks, if not every week and it sucksssss because I hate peanuts.

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    • that does sound sorta gross ngl

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    • also, i have this problem. I mean its not extreme but like... i have this thing where my nails are always painted

      I'm never okay with having just plain nails.

      I ALWAYS paint my nails, in fact there painted rn. 

      I HATE the look of plain nails idek why

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    • I'm not a fan of painting my nails because it makes me feel like a girl, it's to much work, and it stresses me out because I can never get it perfect and I usually end up trying not to cry.

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    • i don't really mess up when i paint my nails considering i've been doing it so much. I have friends that aren't fans of painting their nails either. They always tease me about how my nails are always painted but they just don't know the real reason behind it. My bare nails give me OCD. Like when my nails are bare they look so... ugly and strange (my nails not anyone elses) and i'm worried about what people will say about my bare nails. Basically no one has ever seen my nails bare :/

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    • its a weird habit i know i know

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      also, i have this problem. I mean its not extreme but like... i have this thing where my nails are always painted

      I'm never okay with having just plain nails.

      I ALWAYS paint my nails, in fact there painted rn. 

      I HATE the look of plain nails idek why

      I'm never allowed to paint my nails, because I have an issue itch chewing my nails. I always mess my nails up until it's nothing but little tiny paint flakes right after I get them done.

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    • I don't like going to bed or waking up bed but feeling rested is nice i am also not a food person i only eat when i have to or i am sick or i ACTUALLY want food(not often)

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    • LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      I don't like going to bed or waking up bed but feeling rested is nice i am also not a food person i only eat when i have to or i am sick or i ACTUALLY want food(not often)

      i fr get like 2 or 1 hours of sleep :/ I don't think thats good for my health but... eh

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote: i don't really mess up when i paint my nails considering i've been doing it so much. I have friends that aren't fans of painting their nails either. They always tease me about how my nails are always painted but they just don't know the real reason behind it. My bare nails give me OCD. Like when my nails are bare they look so... ugly and strange (my nails not anyone elses) and i'm worried about what people will say about my bare nails. Basically no one has ever seen my nails bare :/

      other than you and you can just hide your hands but i don't judge i hate broken nails

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    • Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      Ugh sorry I'm complaining but we're having noodles and peanut sauce for dinner. I hate it and everyone else in my family either loves it, likes it, or is fine with it, and they're usually spicey, which I hate as well. We have them like at least once every two weeks, if not every week and it sucksssss because I hate peanuts.

      OH. MY. GOD. We have that at my house too and I hate it although EVERYONE else likes it! Ugh, I've always hated peanuts unless they are either 1. Reese's peanut butter cups or 2. Yeah... I'm drawing a blank. And the idea of noodles and peanut sauce is just so... odd. When I first tried it I was like "...wait what are we having for dinner?"

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    • Cassiopeia11 wrote: I'm not a fan of painting my nails because it makes me feel like a girl, it's to much work, and it stresses me out because I can never get it perfect and I usually end up trying not to cry.

      i don't like being girly too!But i will put on clear nail polish so that they don't break easily

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:

      Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      My problem with eating is that I have no desire to do it. I'll hav slept through beakfast or something, and skipped lunch, and I won't notice I haven't eaten in almost a day until it's five o'clock, and my stomach and head hurts from hunger and dehydration.
      the same thing happens to me

      But i don't sleep through breakfast

      I don' even like sleeping

      so yeah i don't sleep

      I keep myself up untill I fall asleep, and then my stupid brain sleeps in. I don't like sleeping in.
      i don't like sleeping

      i don't sleep

      its not something i need or do

      no offense but i think you do need to sleep but yeah i don't like going to bed or waking up bed but feeling rested is nice but if you wake me up i am grumpy and i don't like it

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    • ok so idk if anyone experiences this but if you wake up before an alarm you feel as if you didn't get any sleep and i don't like going to bed or waking up bed but feeling rested is nice so when i don't feel rested i don't like it at all

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    • btw i won't be here on Saturday i am going kayaking with my family

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    • LoveYallLizzy wrote:

      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:


      Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      My problem with eating is that I have no desire to do it. I'll hav slept through beakfast or something, and skipped lunch, and I won't notice I haven't eaten in almost a day until it's five o'clock, and my stomach and head hurts from hunger and dehydration.
      the same thing happens to me

      But i don't sleep through breakfast

      I don' even like sleeping

      so yeah i don't sleep

      I keep myself up untill I fall asleep, and then my stupid brain sleeps in. I don't like sleeping in.
      i don't like sleeping

      i don't sleep

      its not something i need or do

      no offense but i think you do need to sleep but yeah i don't like going to bed or waking up bed but feeling rested is nice but if you wake me up i am grumpy and i don't like it

      i know i need to sleep. But to me its not something i need :/

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    • ​​​​​​​on the weekend we will go kayaking so i wont be on till the evening or early night just so y'all see this again i will do it tomorrow to also i will use this tomorrow to see were i have read so get ready 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    • LoveYallLizzy
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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      LoveYallLizzy wrote:

      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:


      Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      My problem with eating is that I have no desire to do it. I'll hav slept through beakfast or something, and skipped lunch, and I won't notice I haven't eaten in almost a day until it's five o'clock, and my stomach and head hurts from hunger and dehydration.
      the same thing happens to me

      But i don't sleep through breakfast

      I don' even like sleeping

      so yeah i don't sleep

      I keep myself up untill I fall asleep, and then my stupid brain sleeps in. I don't like sleeping in.
      i don't like sleeping

      i don't sleep

      its not something i need or do

      no offense but i think you do need to sleep but yeah i don't like going to bed or waking up bed but feeling rested is nice but if you wake me up i am grumpy and i don't like it
      i know i need to sleep. But to me its not something i need :/

      i feel you and i love this place because it's not a joke people here actually have things they need to talk about also like you user name

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    • LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      LoveYallLizzy wrote:

      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:



      Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      Cassiopeia11 wrote:
      My problem with eating is that I have no desire to do it. I'll hav slept through beakfast or something, and skipped lunch, and I won't notice I haven't eaten in almost a day until it's five o'clock, and my stomach and head hurts from hunger and dehydration.
      the same thing happens to me

      But i don't sleep through breakfast

      I don' even like sleeping

      so yeah i don't sleep

      I keep myself up untill I fall asleep, and then my stupid brain sleeps in. I don't like sleeping in.
      i don't like sleeping

      i don't sleep

      its not something i need or do

      no offense but i think you do need to sleep but yeah i don't like going to bed or waking up bed but feeling rested is nice but if you wake me up i am grumpy and i don't like it
      i know i need to sleep. But to me its not something i need :/
      i feel you and i love this place because it's not a joke people here actually have things they need to talk about also like you user name

      yeah i know nobody will judge me here because they're also going through similar things. Also, thanks xD

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    • yw

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    • lolz i love hp too yeah it's actually good to learn about what people are going through(not in a bad way)

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    • LoveYallLizzy wrote: lolz i love hp too yeah it's actually good to learn about what people are going through(not in a bad way)

      (i was talking about your comment in the end of my rant)

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    • bye byeeeeeeeeeeeeee ttyl y'all gtg to bed

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    • yeah. I only have one friend irl i feel comtorable talking about this too. She's not in my friend group (i haven't told my friend group about this stuff i'm going through) but she's a really good friend and she gets what i'm going through because she has also been through it as well.

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    • Oh well I hope you get more friend ttyl

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    • That you can talk to about it in irl

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    • thanks ttyl

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      yeah. I only have one friend irl i feel comtorable talking about this too. She's not in my friend group (i haven't told my friend group about this stuff i'm going through) but she's a really good friend and she gets what i'm going through because she has also been through it as well.

      I'm fine with telling my friends about my past (I had a pretty bad elementary school experience), I just don't like telling people about how I am now, so I don't feel comfortable telling anyone except people online, and some of it to my therapist.

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    • I don't really trust some of my friends, and I only have like three people in the entire world that I actually trust.

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    • Lexbexrex wrote:
      I don't really trust some of my friends, and I only have like three people in the entire world that I actually trust.

      Same. The bad thing is all but one of them are on here.........

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    • Ok, so I have my best best friends and sorry parents but I don't really truly trust you. I literally only really trust one person in my entire family.

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    • Foster-Keefe FTW wrote:
      Lexbexrex wrote:
      I don't really trust some of my friends, and I only have like three people in the entire world that I actually trust.
      Same. The bad thing is all but one of them are on here.........

      Well, it's good to know that fandom can be good for something, at least. 

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    • i only trust 1 person irl with my problems

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    • I trust... I'm kinda not sure if it's two or three, one of them is kinda questionable on the trust level.

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i only trust 1 person irl with my problems

      Yeah same. But she's on fandom too so.........

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    • Foster-Keefe FTW wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i only trust 1 person irl with my problems
      Yeah same. But she's on fandom too so.........

      i actually just  trust two people. They're like my best friends Sofia and Jolie :) They've helped me through a lot espically (spelled that wrong) Jolie

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    • It used to be two for me but...........something happened to her. Now it's just my friend Mia

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    • Oh! So this is where the second thread was...

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    • 172.91.64.5 wrote:
      It used to be two for me but...........something happened to her. Now it's just my friend Mia

      ayyyy heyyyy i know someone with a "friend" named Mia ;)

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    • Hehehe

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    • yup Mia's just a "friend"... unless she actually is idek what happened

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    • I trust wayyyy too easily so I have a lot of people who I trust enough to talk about this, especially since I know some of them are going through/have gone through similar things. I know one day my over-trusting-ness is going to come back and haunt me but... it is what it is. The problem is, I trust people enough to share things with them but then I get super mad at myself for sharing because it's not like they care and it's not like I'm worth caring about. Its an endless cycle of self hate. But in the moment, I have no filter. If that makes sense?

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    • TheSilverCrane wrote:
      Oh! So this is where the second thread was...

      speaking of finding the second thread... is there a way for someone to edit a comment on the first thread and add in the link or something? Because I had some trouble finding this and others may have too

      I'm really happy this exists, it's so much easier sharing stuff with strangers who sorta get me because I don't have to worry about judgement or anything because you're strangers, it's not like we'll ever meet irl and if we do we won't know it :)

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    • 71.121.240.192 wrote:
      I trust wayyyy too easily so I have a lot of people who I trust enough to talk about this, especially since I know some of them are going through/have gone through similar things. I know one day my over-trusting-ness is going to come back and haunt me but... it is what it is. The problem is, I trust people enough to share things with them but then I get super mad at myself for sharing because it's not like they care and it's not like I'm worth caring about. Its an endless cycle of self hate. But in the moment, I have no filter. If that makes sense?

      I'm the oposite, I don't trust easily at all, and the reason behind is, to be totally honest, that my "best friend" is a huge gossip and cannot keep a secret for her life. And I know that's mean, but I actually can't think of a secret I told her she didn't tell someone else. And I know not trusting people will come back and bite me in the butt, it already has,  but I don't want any more people than there already has been betraying me.

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    • I have two best friends who are literally SAINTS. Like, they are soooooo nice and one of my best friends is LITERALLY my polar opposite. The other one is kinda different, but not WAAAAY different.

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    • I have a bunch of close friends and like, 2 friends that are basically my siblings lol.

      aNd to tHE tOpiC oF tRuSTing...

      I don't trust ANYONE. Not with full trust. I personally assume I don't know anyone on here, which is why I'm venting here, but honestly? I can't do a trust fall AT ALL and I can't be in a room with only 1 teacher or student/person in general without freaking out and running away.

      For goodness sakes I can't even talk to a teacher and ask a question with them out in the hallway without being nervous and wanting to leave.

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    • Sorry guys but I don’t know if I’ll be that active anymore. MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS. well apparently my sister has been going through my notifs and since I tell you guys stuff she sees all my........problems...........and she did the worst thing. SHE TOLD MY PARENTS. Not about everything just my anxiety and depression but still just ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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    • I have two main friends (and I always say that I don't have a best friend but if I did it would be them) One is a legit saint (I could never be as nice as her) and the other is super nice and really funny and we enjoy being insane together. They are the people I trust the most because I don't trust my family (I have never told them ANYTHING about my personal life or anxiety or whatever is bothering me) 

      I tell them things I would NEVER EVER IN A MILLION YEARS tell my family.

      So yeah.

      This may sound weird but I trust my friends way more than my family.



      But I guess I don't TRULY trust anybody. I have some trust issues.

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    • Foster-Keefe FTW wrote:
      Sorry guys but I don’t know if I’ll be that active anymore. MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS. well apparently my sister has been going through my notifs and since I tell you guys stuff she sees all my........problems...........and she did the worst thing. SHE TOLD MY PARENTS. Not about everything just my anxiety and depression but still just ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

      ahhh 'm sorry Linh. She shouldn't have invaded your privacy and she shouldn't have told your parents if you weren't okay with it

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    • I AM SO SO SORRY!

      Do you mind telling me how you got thoughs trust issues? I will be off today though.

      -SAA Aka Samma

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    • notif

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    • So when i was reading earlier comments i suggest that you share the same thing with many people so that if one of them gossips your other friends will all ready know and it won't be AS big of a deal(i don't do this btu it work's ,my friend told me)

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    • Wow. This is a hardcore thread 😶

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    • I had a crazy last year. Girl drama 😑 

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      I had a crazy last year. Girl drama 😑 

      I feel that

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    • But i guess i can't say anything cuz it won't compare lol

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    • Foster-Keefe FTW wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      I had a crazy last year. Girl drama 😑 
      I feel that

      Yeah. Sometimes popular girls are overrated. Edit: always overrated

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    • You can share anything you feel comfortable sharing. We don't judge

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      Foster-Keefe FTW wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      I had a crazy last year. Girl drama 😑 
      I feel that
      Yeah. Sometimes popular girls are overrated. Edit: always overrated

      Yup

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    • Foster-Keefe FTW wrote:
      You can share anything you feel comfortable sharing. We don't judge

      Yup :)

      This is a no-judging zone :)

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    • Foster-Keefe FTW wrote:
      You can share anything you feel comfortable sharing. We don't judge

      Thanks! Its like i'm trying to put myself in ur guys shoes. Like, my last year wasn't thaaat crazy, compared to what you guys are going thru. I mean, i'm glad im not depressed or anything, but i kinda almost want to be( that sounded weird) just to understand what ur going thru. Idek if this makes sense lol

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    • ^ i wasn't trying to offend

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    • Heres is something to cheer up anyone who is sad



      its my little baby mouse i rescued from the wild! Her name is pheobe and her eyes arent even open! Isnt she cute?
      Image
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    • OH MY GOD SO CUTE I LOVE HER SO MUCH

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    • Foster-Keefe FTW wrote:
      OH MY GOD SO CUTE I LOVE HER SO MUCH

      Isn't she adorable?? 😍 

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    • Yeah!

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    • Im screaming to a playlist of the Backstreet Boys because y not

      hEllO pEopLE

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    • Cheezybean wrote:
      Im screaming to a playlist of the Backstreet Boys because y not

      hEllO pEopLE

      Oh hey Cheezy

      ~Jo

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    • XD

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    • I searched up "who is barney" and also "can you find me a picture of kermit the frog drinking tea"

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    • 73.92.189.215 wrote:
      I searched up "who is barney" and also "can you find me a picture of kermit the frog drinking tea"

      ~Jo

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      Heres is something to cheer up anyone who is sad


      its my little baby mouse i rescued from the wild! Her name is pheobe and her eyes arent even open! Isnt she cute?
      Image

      OH MY GOSH SHE IS SO CUTEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    • 73.92.189.215 wrote:
      73.92.189.215 wrote:
      I searched up "who is barney" and also "can you find me a picture of kermit the frog drinking tea"
      ~Jo

      XD XD XD XD 

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    • MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      Heres is something to cheer up anyone who is sad


      its my little baby mouse i rescued from the wild! Her name is pheobe and her eyes arent even open! Isnt she cute?
      Image
      OH MY GOSH SHE IS SO CUTEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

      Omg are you like stalking me for mouse pictures?? Hhaha you comment on every one i post. Also thanks for the third time 😆 

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    • Hey guys I've never ever told anybody ever about my problems like not even my therapist. I don't have a therapist anymore because she actually just made me feel really bad about myself and I don't trust any of my friends and my family already has enough to deal with so I keep it all to myself because I don't feel comfortable telling people about my problems so all my friends think I have a perfect life and I feel great all the time. I honestly think nobody knows at all how I feel most of the time. But I kinda don't feel like I can tell anybody. Sorry for my run-on sentences and mini-rants.

      Does anybody have advice?

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      Heres is something to cheer up anyone who is sad


      its my little baby mouse i rescued from the wild! Her name is pheobe and her eyes arent even open! Isnt she cute?
      Image
      OH MY GOSH SHE IS SO CUTEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
      Omg are you like stalking me for mouse pictures?? Hhaha you comment on every one i post. Also thanks for the third time 😆 

      AHHH THAT IS ADOARBALE (spelled that wrong xD)

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      Heres is something to cheer up anyone who is sad


      its my little baby mouse i rescued from the wild! Her name is pheobe and her eyes arent even open! Isnt she cute?
      Image
      OH MY GOSH SHE IS SO CUTEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
      Omg are you like stalking me for mouse pictures?? Hhaha you comment on every one i post. Also thanks for the third time 😆 
      AHHH THAT IS ADOARBALE (spelled that wrong xD)

      Thank you! 

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    • I knew pheobe would cheer u guys up!

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    • I can go into more detail if you guys want. I hope I'm not bothering anyone. I don't want to be a burden. Sorry if I am.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • 104.218.157.252 wrote:
      I can go into more detail if you guys want. I hope I'm not bothering anyone. I don't want to be a burden. Sorry if I am.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

      If you Feel comfortable sharing you can give us more details. And your not a burden. Don't be sorry

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    • 104.218.157.252 wrote:
      Hey guys I've never ever told anybody ever about my problems like not even my therapist. I don't have a therapist anymore because she actually just made me feel really bad about myself and I don't trust any of my friends and my family already has enough to deal with so I keep it all to myself because I don't feel comfortable telling people about my problems so all my friends think I have a perfect life and I feel great all the time. I honestly think nobody knows at all how I feel most of the time. But I kinda don't feel like I can tell anybody. Sorry for my run-on sentences and mini-rants.

      Does anybody have advice?

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

      I know exactly how you feel. I am in kind of the the same situation :( My advice (although I guess I have never done this) is tell somebody about what's bothering you. You can tell your friends, or your family, or your pet (if you have one), or even Fandom :) Fandom is a great place to vent because nobody really knows you in real life, so they can't judge you or make fun of you because they don't even know you. So if you every need to vent or talk, you can come to me if you want :)

      I hope that was at least semi-helpful lol

      I should probably follow my own advice . . .

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    • i'm trying to cheer myself up by watching a vampire movie xDxD idek why

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    • MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      104.218.157.252 wrote:
      Hey guys I've never ever told anybody ever about my problems like not even my therapist. I don't have a therapist anymore because she actually just made me feel really bad about myself and I don't trust any of my friends and my family already has enough to deal with so I keep it all to myself because I don't feel comfortable telling people about my problems so all my friends think I have a perfect life and I feel great all the time. I honestly think nobody knows at all how I feel most of the time. But I kinda don't feel like I can tell anybody. Sorry for my run-on sentences and mini-rants.

      Does anybody have advice?

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

      I know exactly how you feel. I am in kind of the the same situation :( My advice (although I guess I have never done this) is tell somebody about what's bothering you. You can tell your friends, or your family, or your pet (if you have one), or even Fandom :) Fandom is a great place to vent because nobody really knows you in real life, so they can't judge you or make fun of you because they don't even know you. So if you every need to vent or talk, you can come to me if you want :)

      I hope that was at least semi-helpful lol

      I should probably follow my own advice . . .

      Yes that is good advice. I know it can be hard to tell someone what you are going through, but it really is the best thing to do. Trust issues are a real challenge, but if you tell someone, they can help you! I know parents can be especially hard to trust for some reason, plus i don't know what your parents are like, but i do know for a fact they love you and they want you to be happy! So if you tell someone how you feel, it should make a huge difference. And don't worry about being a burden to whoever you tell. If you tell someone, your burdens can be lightened, but the person you tell won't necessarily be burdened by what you told them(if that makes sense). The bible says: "Throw your burden on Jehovah, And he will sustain you. Never will he allow the righteous one to fall,". I really hope this helps, and you feel better!

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    • Also when i read the word "trigger" on the description in the very beginning of this thread, i suddenly smelled brussel sprouts 😂 

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      Also when i read the word "trigger" on the description in the very beginning of this thread, i suddenly smelled brussel sprouts 😂 

      Do you have synesthesia?

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    • 204.195.19.176 wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      Also when i read the word "trigger" on the description in the very beginning of this thread, i suddenly smelled brussel sprouts 😂 
      Do you have synesthesia?

      I have no idea what that is 😆 

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    • i'm trying to cheer myself up by watching a vampire movie. They're always fun to watch 😂

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i'm trying to cheer myself up by watching a vampire movie. They're always fun to watch 😂

      Uh noice

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i'm trying to cheer myself up by watching a vampire movie. They're always fun to watch 😂

      Why are you sad....?

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i'm trying to cheer myself up by watching a vampire movie. They're always fun to watch 😂
      Uh noice

      ah yes very weird I know xD

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      204.195.19.176 wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      Also when i read the word "trigger" on the description in the very beginning of this thread, i suddenly smelled brussel sprouts 😂 
      Do you have synesthesia?
      I have no idea what that is 😆 

      I looked it up... maybe? Idk maybe that would be cool

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i'm trying to cheer myself up by watching a vampire movie. They're always fun to watch 😂
      Why are you sad....?

      eh I have this one friend that was bringing me down and saying rude things and she kept starting drama and she made me feel bad :/

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      204.195.19.176 wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      Also when i read the word "trigger" on the description in the very beginning of this thread, i suddenly smelled brussel sprouts 😂 
      Do you have synesthesia?
      I have no idea what that is 😆 

      Synesthesia is when you have mixed up senses

      Like if you see the color red, you might hear the sound of a bell

      or if you eat a carrot, you might see the color green flash in front of you

      Or the letter B has to have the color blue

      Or if when you smell onions, you hear a cat's meow



      Google:

      Synesthesia is a condition in which stimulation of one sense automatically evokes a perception in an unstimulated sense (e.g. the sound of a bell triggers seeing the color blue)

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    • MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      204.195.19.176 wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      Also when i read the word "trigger" on the description in the very beginning of this thread, i suddenly smelled brussel sprouts 😂 
      Do you have synesthesia?
      I have no idea what that is 😆 
      Synesthesia is when you have mixed up senses

      Like if you see the color red, you might hear the sound of a bell

      or if you eat a carrot, you might see the color green flash in front of you

      Or the letter B has to have the color blue

      Or if when you smell onions, you hear a cat's meow



      Google:

      Synesthesia is a condition in which stimulation of one sense automatically evokes a perception in an unstimulated sense (e.g. the sound of a bell triggers seeing the color blue)

      Maybe 🤷‍♀️

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    • but i smelled pizza and it is also a green word (for me it is different for every body else with synesthesia)

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i'm trying to cheer myself up by watching a vampire movie. They're always fun to watch 😂
      Why are you sad....?
      eh I have this one friend that was bringing me down and saying rude things and she kept starting drama and she made me feel bad :/

      I'm sorry 😔 

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    • LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      but i smelled pizza and it is also a green word (for me it is different for every body else with synesthesia

      Thats weird

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      204.195.19.176 wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      Also when i read the word "trigger" on the description in the very beginning of this thread, i suddenly smelled brussel sprouts 😂 
      Do you have synesthesia?
      I have no idea what that is 😆 

      it's when you like see a letter and it is also a color, or hear a sound and you instantly imagine a colour or taste or, in your possible case, when you read a word and smell something that isn't really there. 

      In my case (because I do have synesthesia), I see letters as colours (a = red, h = tan, z = peach, etc.) and hear colours too. so like a D on the piano is a nice shade of lavender. 

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i'm trying to cheer myself up by watching a vampire movie. They're always fun to watch 😂
      Why are you sad....?
      eh I have this one friend that was bringing me down and saying rude things and she kept starting drama and she made me feel bad :/
      I'm sorry 😔 

      awwww that sucks

      if you ever need to talk, i'm always open :)

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs

      reply to #141

      LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      but i smelled pizza and it is also a green word (for me it is different for every body else with synesthesia

      Thats weird

      15 minutes ago hay don't judge we don't judge here!!!!!!jk

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    • Ok here is the next thread...

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    • MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      i'm trying to cheer myself up by watching a vampire movie. They're always fun to watch 😂
      Why are you sad....?
      eh I have this one friend that was bringing me down and saying rude things and she kept starting drama and she made me feel bad :/
      I'm sorry 😔 
      awwww that sucks

      if you ever need to talk, i'm always open :)

      thanks guys

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    • i am here to!!!

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    • LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      i am here to!!!

      Yay! I remember you from Complicated!

      You probably don't remember me tho... I'm the person that wrote the fanfics of the fanfic...

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    • go on my message wall or here to talk i love hearing about people with problems(i mean like if they have depression i don't mean to sound rude) just hit my name then click message wall i will always be their but not tomorrow(sorry) i am going kayaking with my family and my dog(he has a cute life vest it look's sooooooo cute)

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    • 204.195.19.176 wrote:
      LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      i am here to!!!

      Yay! I remember you from Complicated!

      You probably don't remember me tho... I'm the person that wrote the fanfics of the fanfic...

      oh i know u but i forgot if you had a nickname(sorry i usually don't remember thing's that i don't think are important in the moment i don't mean to sound rude)

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    • Okay. Thank you very much. I will post a description in a few hours. I'm just gonna have some breathing room for a bit. Thank you, Foster-Keefe FTW*, Mallowmelt Moonlark, and SuddenlyFriedEggs.

      • I love your Username. ;)

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • XD, no problem. I hope you feel a little better

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    • 104.218.157.252 wrote:
      Okay. Thank you very much. I will post a description in a few hours. I'm just gonna have some breathing room for a bit. Thank you, Foster-Keefe FTW*, Mallowmelt Moonlark, and SuddenlyFriedEggs.
      • I love your Username. ;)

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

      Anytime! Also, my usename? If so, thanks!

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    • LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      204.195.19.176 wrote:
      LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      i am here to!!!

      Yay! I remember you from Complicated!

      You probably don't remember me tho... I'm the person that wrote the fanfics of the fanfic...

      oh i know u but i forgot if you had a nickname(sorry i usually don't remember thing's that i don't think are important in the moment i don't mean to sound rude)



      Oh no that's fine, I don't usually sign off so I don't blame you at all. I used to sign off with Rainday but I changed it. You can call me Adeli! (short for Adelinetta).

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    • Oh haha not mine lol

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    • 104.218.157.252 wrote:
      Okay. Thank you very much. I will post a description in a few hours. I'm just gonna have some breathing room for a bit. Thank you, Foster-Keefe FTW*, Mallowmelt Moonlark, and SuddenlyFriedEggs.
      • I love your Username. ;)

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

      no problem :)

      I hope you're feeling a bit better :)

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    • I LOVE EVERY BODY HERE ALSO TALK ABOUT UR PROBLEMS ON MY MESSAGE WALL(NOT IN A RUDE WAY)BTW I AM TO LAZY TO GET OUT OF CAPS LOCK

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    • LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      I LOVE EVERY BODY HERE ALSO TALK ABOUT UR PROBLEMS ON MY MESSAGE WALL(NOT IN A RUDE WAY)BTW I AM TO LAZY TO GET OUT OF CAPS LOCK

      XD

      we love you too lizzy :) :) :) 

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    • MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS

      So my mom made salmon for lunch and i HATE fish and i was just picking at it half the time and my sister was just like "Get over yourself" and it made me feel so... mad and weak. So i'm basically starving myself. I haven't eaten since 1pm yesterday...

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    • LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      go on my message wall or here to talk i love hearing about people with problems(i mean like if they have depression i don't mean to sound rude) just hit my name then click message wall i will always be their but not tomorrow(sorry) i am going kayaking with my family and my dog(he has a cute life vest it look's sooooooo cute)

      Same! Anyone can message me too if they want or just randomly. I have a bunch of problems so I try to help others to make me happier. :))

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    • RIPSiriusBlack wrote:
      MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS

      So my mom made salmon for lunch and i HATE fish and i was just picking at it half the time and my sister was just like "Get over yourself" and it made me feel so... mad and weak. So i'm basically starving myself. I haven't eaten since 1pm yesterday...

      ah ah aah hate is a strong word(lolz) also just eat in private and you are not weak you are amazing because you like kotlc and hp(what i assume because you are here on the KOTLC mental heath awareness club but i don't know if they have it on another wiki and for the hp ur username kind of gives it away unless you picked a random username ok done with my rant now)

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    • xD yes i do like HP. I honestly don't why i picked something HP for a KOTLC wiki lol

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    • mhahahah i changed my username xD

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    • Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      mhahahah i changed my username xD

      lol nice i like it :)

      but still- RIP SERIUS BLACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    • MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      I LOVE EVERY BODY HERE ALSO TALK ABOUT UR PROBLEMS ON MY MESSAGE WALL(NOT IN A RUDE WAY)BTW I AM TO LAZY TO GET OUT OF CAPS LOCK
      XD

      we love you too lizzy :) :) :) 

      Yes Lizzy we love you too! :D

      And so is EVERYONE (yes, absolutely everyone) on this thread! You are worthy. You are special. And you are a wonderful person, regardless of what anyone else tells you. *gives hugz to everyone* *grins* I think I'm overloading from how awesome everyone here is.... lolz

      HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY!!!!!! :D <3

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    • Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      xD yes i do like HP. I honestly don't why i picked something HP for a KOTLC wiki lol

      Don't worry, I used to go on other wikis with Project Sokeefe and I bet they were wondering what on earth Sokeefe was.

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    • Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      mhahahah i changed my username xD

      nice

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    • can i follow you?

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    • LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      can i follow you?

      what?

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    • on ur page

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    • i have no idea what that is xDxDxD

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    • oh well i did it

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    • also ur lucky there is no humidity in California i live in Connecticut 

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    • oof. I love California i've lived here my whole life. I can't imagine living anywhere hot

      But the bad thing is ITS ALWAYS SO FRICKN HOT

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    • LOLZ!!!Sorry i was on a face time with my friend and i did not want to be rude and be on here when we were face timing 

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    • Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      oof. I love California i've lived here my whole life. I can't imagine living anywhere hot

      But the bad thing is ITS ALWAYS SO FRICKN HOT

      ikr? i don't have a pool so i'm basically dead during the summer

      ~Jo

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    • lol we are getting a pool but it's half done due to Covid-19 so our back yard look's a lot bit weird

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    • 73.92.189.215 wrote:
      Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      oof. I love California i've lived here my whole life. I can't imagine living anywhere hot

      But the bad thing is ITS ALWAYS SO FRICKN HOT

      ikr? i don't have a pool so i'm basically dead during the summer

      ~Jo

      ​​​​​​​IKR

      IT'S ALWAYS SO HOT

      EVEN IN THE WINTER

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    • MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      73.92.189.215 wrote:
      Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      oof. I love California i've lived here my whole life. I can't imagine living anywhere hot

      But the bad thing is ITS ALWAYS SO FRICKN HOT

      ikr? i don't have a pool so i'm basically dead during the summer

      ~Jo

      ​​​​​​​IKR

      IT'S ALWAYS SO HOT

      EVEN IN THE WINTER

      GHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%F

      IKR?

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    • lolz

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    • MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      73.92.189.215 wrote:
      Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      oof. I love California i've lived here my whole life. I can't imagine living anywhere hot

      But the bad thing is ITS ALWAYS SO FRICKN HOT

      ikr? i don't have a pool so i'm basically dead during the summer

      ~Jo

      ​​​​​​​IKR

      IT'S ALWAYS SO HOT

      EVEN IN THE WINTER

      GHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%FGHBUVTYCDGVUTF&UYGFT&^YGUF^*GI*I*I*F^TRYGIVFTD%^&FUYGFT&DR%F

      Yeah California is kinda annoying. But at least I never have to get snow stuff.

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    • i like snow

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    • I love rain.

      Like way more than when it's sunny or snowing. 

      The perfect weather: it's warm outside but the sky is a dark stormy grey/blue and it's raining and it smells like rain on concrete and you can run on the rough pavement outside and you're not cold at all but you're still getting soaked and you can hear the thunder from far away. 

      Do you guys like rain?

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    • LoveYallLizzy wrote:
      i like snow

      Yeah same, I meant snow gear, I made a typo and then autocorrect totally changed the word. I ski a lot, and I hate having to put on all the snow clothes.

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    • 204.195.19.176 wrote:
      I love rain.

      Like way more than when it's sunny or snowing. 

      The perfect weather: it's warm outside but the sky is a dark stormy grey/blue and it's raining and it smells like rain on concrete and you can run on the rough pavement outside and you're not cold at all but you're still getting soaked and you can hear the thunder from far away. 

      Do you guys like rain?

      Love it 

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    • I think the perfect weather for me is: it's slightly cold out, but barely, the sky is grey with clouds overhead, it smells like rain, and I can feel the droplets dripping on me. I open my mouth and o can taste the icy water falling on my tongue. 

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    • my perfect weather is: cloudy and foggy no sun showing at all. Slightly raining but not to much, and really cold, not a little cold but very cold

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    • Hah.

      Oregon is a mess.

      It snows, rains, is sunny, is sorta humid, cold, and windy at the same freaking time.

      anD thE mEtERolOgIstS HERe kINDA sUck

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    • Up in BC were I live, it rains throughout all seasons (it was rainy today), it gets really hot in the summer, and all the other seasons are pretty much unpredictable. In winter most of the time it snows, but sometimes it rains, and then freezes and the snow become like ice and you can literally scratch yourself on it, and sometimes it just turns to slush, and sometimes there's so much that school is cancelled, and sometimes there's none at all. And then autumns usually start out sunny and get rainy, and spring start out rainy and gets sunny.

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    • Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      my perfect weather is: cloudy and foggy no sun showing at all. Slightly raining but not to much, and really cold, not a little cold but very cold
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    • Possible triggers (not sure though) Hi I'm so sorry I think I'm oversharing but I feel really sad and awful right now and I was super mad earlier for absolutely no reason and I feel super sad and bad right now because I'm not allowed to be mad, I can't, and it was for no reason and now I just feel so broken and empty and POSSIBLE TRIGGER I really want to hurt myself and I'm trying not to is anyone here please help I'm so lonely I'm so sorry for saying this not like any of it matters

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    • 71.121.240.192 wrote:
      Possible triggers (not sure though) Hi I'm so sorry I think I'm oversharing but I feel really sad and awful right now and I was super mad earlier for absolutely no reason and I feel super sad and bad right now because I'm not allowed to be mad, I can't, and it was for no reason and now I just feel so broken and empty and POSSIBLE TRIGGER I really want to hurt myself and I'm trying not to is anyone here please help I'm so lonely I'm so sorry for saying this not like any of it matters

      It's totally fine! You're not oversharing, this is the place where you can talk about things like this.

      I'm sorry you're feeling so broken and empty. *gives you a hug* I'm here for you. We all are. I used to have the same thing as you do, when I would lose control of my emotions and then I would feel bad for letting them get out of control and then I'd want to punish myself for that. Don't hurt yourself, though! If you do, you'll regret it. I regret it. Very much so. 

      You can do this. You can get through this. And whenever you feel like this, make sure that you know that you are worthy and beautiful and wonderful and powerful so many other amazing things. We're all here for you, supporting you. 

      And you and your feelings matter, very much. To a lot of people. You matter to me, if you don't think you matter to anyone else.

      .*gives a hug to you and hands you a cookie* Here you go! Have a nice lemon-mint cookie. And if you don't like lemon-mint, then chocolate-caramel! *gives you another cookie*

      We all love you! So don't give up on yourself, because I won't give up on you and no one else will either.

      - Sundai (Adelinetta) <3

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    • 204.195.19.176 wrote:
      71.121.240.192 wrote:
      Possible triggers (not sure though) Hi I'm so sorry I think I'm oversharing but I feel really sad and awful right now and I was super mad earlier for absolutely no reason and I feel super sad and bad right now because I'm not allowed to be mad, I can't, and it was for no reason and now I just feel so broken and empty and POSSIBLE TRIGGER I really want to hurt myself and I'm trying not to is anyone here please help I'm so lonely I'm so sorry for saying this not like any of it matters
      It's totally fine! You're not oversharing, this is the place where you can talk about things like this.

      I'm sorry you're feeling so broken and empty. *gives you a hug* I'm here for you. We all are. I used to have the same thing as you do, when I would lose control of my emotions and then I would feel bad for letting them get out of control and then I'd want to punish myself for that. Don't hurt yourself, though! If you do, you'll regret it. I regret it. Very much so. 

      You can do this. You can get through this. And whenever you feel like this, make sure that you know that you are worthy and beautiful and wonderful and powerful so many other amazing things. We're all here for you, supporting you. 

      And you and your feelings matter, very much. To a lot of people. You matter to me, if you don't think you matter to anyone else.

      .*gives a hug to you and hands you a cookie* Here you go! Have a nice lemon-mint cookie. And if you don't like lemon-mint, then chocolate-caramel! *gives you another cookie*

      We all love you! So don't give up on yourself, because I won't give up on you and no one else will either.

      - Sundai (Adelinetta) <3

      I can't top that advice especially cause CONTAINS TRIGGERS I cut and harm myself. Definitely don't do it. 

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    • Foster-Keefe FTW wrote:
      204.195.19.176 wrote:
      71.121.240.192 wrote:
      Possible triggers (not sure though) Hi I'm so sorry I think I'm oversharing but I feel really sad and awful right now and I was super mad earlier for absolutely no reason and I feel super sad and bad right now because I'm not allowed to be mad, I can't, and it was for no reason and now I just feel so broken and empty and POSSIBLE TRIGGER I really want to hurt myself and I'm trying not to is anyone here please help I'm so lonely I'm so sorry for saying this not like any of it matters
      It's totally fine! You're not oversharing, this is the place where you can talk about things like this.

      I'm sorry you're feeling so broken and empty. *gives you a hug* I'm here for you. We all are. I used to have the same thing as you do, when I would lose control of my emotions and then I would feel bad for letting them get out of control and then I'd want to punish myself for that. Don't hurt yourself, though! If you do, you'll regret it. I regret it. Very much so. 

      You can do this. You can get through this. And whenever you feel like this, make sure that you know that you are worthy and beautiful and wonderful and powerful so many other amazing things. We're all here for you, supporting you. 

      And you and your feelings matter, very much. To a lot of people. You matter to me, if you don't think you matter to anyone else.

      .*gives a hug to you and hands you a cookie* Here you go! Have a nice lemon-mint cookie. And if you don't like lemon-mint, then chocolate-caramel! *gives you another cookie*

      We all love you! So don't give up on yourself, because I won't give up on you and no one else will either.

      - Sundai (Adelinetta) <3

      I can't top that advice especially cause CONTAINS TRIGGERS I cut and harm myself. Definitely don't do it. 
      • sobs* thank you so much, I know I sound dumb but I'm a sappy naive idiot and I needed to hear this *hugs back and breaks cookie(s) in half to share* <3
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    • Okay guys I just read that and I'm actually crying now that was great advice.

      I'm almost done writing out a huge thing about all my problems. You guys don't have to read it but I'm just gonna vent for a while. It'll probably be up tomorrow. I'm sorry if I somehow magically break the thread with the comment.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • I'd love to read anything you have to say. Vent away, whatever you need.

      I don't know if this sounds selfish or weird, but I like hearing about what other people are going through because it makes me feel like I'm not alone.

      Great, I'm crying

      Thank you guys you're all so amazing ily

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    • Okay. It'll probably be up tomorrow.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • 71.121.240.192 wrote:
      I'd love to read anything you have to say. Vent away, whatever you need.

      I don't know if this sounds selfish or weird, but I like hearing about what other people are going through because it makes me feel like I'm not alone.

      Great, I'm crying

      Thank you guys you're all so amazing ily

      ily ily

      dAS y wE'RE hERe

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    • Well it's 1 AM where I'm at and I just finished my rant but I'm gonna wait until it's later to post it so that I can proof-read it while I'm not half asleep. Aaah my eyes are getting all wet again!! I better go before I start crying. You guys are all just so sweet and I feel safe here even though I know close to nothing about any of you. Just know that you made me very happy today.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • notif and yay!

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    • today was better than most days

      I still got verbally abused by my sister like usual but she wasn't really trying this time

      I basically half starved myself. I only had half a bagel to eat :/

      But other than those things, today was better than most days but not the best

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    • That's good to hear that it was better than usual!

      My day kinda sucked. I skipped breakfast, my mom didn't notice, but I also skipped lunch and my mom got me in trouble for it, and I was in a bit of a funk for a couple hours where all I really did was wish I was dead, and that was it.

      Those are the big things, but of course ther's a bunch of little things, as well.

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    • Yeah I get in moods where I just kinda think about how I hate life, hate people, and hate myself and im kinda in one rn

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    • I didn't really hate anything, or hate myself, I just felt like nothing, like everything was worthless, and nothing had any meaning to me. I'm just kinda coming out of it now.

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    • Well I'm glad to hear you're coming out of it!

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    • Yeah, I mean, I didn't even have the energy to [TRIGGER WARNING] self harm. I'm still deciding whether that was a good or bad thing.

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    • I see...

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    • Eh, Ima go watch youtube now. Seeya!

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    • 71.121.240.192 wrote:
      Foster-Keefe FTW wrote:
      204.195.19.176 wrote:
      71.121.240.192 wrote:
      Possible triggers (not sure though) Hi I'm so sorry I think I'm oversharing but I feel really sad and awful right now and I was super mad earlier for absolutely no reason and I feel super sad and bad right now because I'm not allowed to be mad, I can't, and it was for no reason and now I just feel so broken and empty and POSSIBLE TRIGGER I really want to hurt myself and I'm trying not to is anyone here please help I'm so lonely I'm so sorry for saying this not like any of it matters
      It's totally fine! You're not oversharing, this is the place where you can talk about things like this.

      I'm sorry you're feeling so broken and empty. *gives you a hug* I'm here for you. We all are. I used to have the same thing as you do, when I would lose control of my emotions and then I would feel bad for letting them get out of control and then I'd want to punish myself for that. Don't hurt yourself, though! If you do, you'll regret it. I regret it. Very much so. 

      You can do this. You can get through this. And whenever you feel like this, make sure that you know that you are worthy and beautiful and wonderful and powerful so many other amazing things. We're all here for you, supporting you. 

      And you and your feelings matter, very much. To a lot of people. You matter to me, if you don't think you matter to anyone else.

      .*gives a hug to you and hands you a cookie* Here you go! Have a nice lemon-mint cookie. And if you don't like lemon-mint, then chocolate-caramel! *gives you another cookie*

      We all love you! So don't give up on yourself, because I won't give up on you and no one else will either.

      - Sundai (Adelinetta) <3

      I can't top that advice especially cause CONTAINS TRIGGERS I cut and harm myself. Definitely don't do it. 
      • sobs* thank you so much, I know I sound dumb but I'm a sappy naive idiot and I needed to hear this *hugs back and breaks cookie(s) in half to share* <3
      Awww sorry you guys! Also that is good advice! Here is a little mousey to cheer you up
      6C4F5298-0C61-48CC-94CC-09A62291BBE2

      I rescued her from the wild! Her eyes have started cracking open finally. Her name is pheobe

      ​​​​​​​
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    • no i am not stalking you for mouse pictures

      but

      SHE IS SO ADORABLE I WANT A MOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!

      XD

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    • SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      71.121.240.192 wrote:
      Foster-Keefe FTW wrote:
      204.195.19.176 wrote:
      71.121.240.192 wrote:
      Possible triggers (not sure though) Hi I'm so sorry I think I'm oversharing but I feel really sad and awful right now and I was super mad earlier for absolutely no reason and I feel super sad and bad right now because I'm not allowed to be mad, I can't, and it was for no reason and now I just feel so broken and empty and POSSIBLE TRIGGER I really want to hurt myself and I'm trying not to is anyone here please help I'm so lonely I'm so sorry for saying this not like any of it matters
      It's totally fine! You're not oversharing, this is the place where you can talk about things like this.

      I'm sorry you're feeling so broken and empty. *gives you a hug* I'm here for you. We all are. I used to have the same thing as you do, when I would lose control of my emotions and then I would feel bad for letting them get out of control and then I'd want to punish myself for that. Don't hurt yourself, though! If you do, you'll regret it. I regret it. Very much so. 

      You can do this. You can get through this. And whenever you feel like this, make sure that you know that you are worthy and beautiful and wonderful and powerful so many other amazing things. We're all here for you, supporting you. 

      And you and your feelings matter, very much. To a lot of people. You matter to me, if you don't think you matter to anyone else.

      .*gives a hug to you and hands you a cookie* Here you go! Have a nice lemon-mint cookie. And if you don't like lemon-mint, then chocolate-caramel! *gives you another cookie*

      We all love you! So don't give up on yourself, because I won't give up on you and no one else will either.

      - Sundai (Adelinetta) <3

      I can't top that advice especially cause CONTAINS TRIGGERS I cut and harm myself. Definitely don't do it. 


      • sobs* thank you so much, I know I sound dumb but I'm a sappy naive idiot and I needed to hear this *hugs back and breaks cookie(s) in half to share* <3
      Awww sorry you guys! Also that is good advice! Here is a little mousey to cheer you up
      6C4F5298-0C61-48CC-94CC-09A62291BBE2

      I rescued her from the wild! Her eyes have started cracking open finally. Her name is pheobe

      ​​​​​​​

      We rescued a turtle which was on the road but we put it back in the wild....cute mouse btw!

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    • MallowmeltMoonlark wrote:
      no i am not stalking you for mouse pictures

      but

      SHE IS SO ADORABLE I WANT A MOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!

      XD

      XD

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    • Project Sokeefe wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      71.121.240.192 wrote:
      Foster-Keefe FTW wrote:
      204.195.19.176 wrote:
      71.121.240.192 wrote:
      Possible triggers (not sure though) Hi I'm so sorry I think I'm oversharing but I feel really sad and awful right now and I was super mad earlier for absolutely no reason and I feel super sad and bad right now because I'm not allowed to be mad, I can't, and it was for no reason and now I just feel so broken and empty and POSSIBLE TRIGGER I really want to hurt myself and I'm trying not to is anyone here please help I'm so lonely I'm so sorry for saying this not like any of it matters
      It's totally fine! You're not oversharing, this is the place where you can talk about things like this.

      I'm sorry you're feeling so broken and empty. *gives you a hug* I'm here for you. We all are. I used to have the same thing as you do, when I would lose control of my emotions and then I would feel bad for letting them get out of control and then I'd want to punish myself for that. Don't hurt yourself, though! If you do, you'll regret it. I regret it. Very much so. 

      You can do this. You can get through this. And whenever you feel like this, make sure that you know that you are worthy and beautiful and wonderful and powerful so many other amazing things. We're all here for you, supporting you. 

      And you and your feelings matter, very much. To a lot of people. You matter to me, if you don't think you matter to anyone else.

      .*gives a hug to you and hands you a cookie* Here you go! Have a nice lemon-mint cookie. And if you don't like lemon-mint, then chocolate-caramel! *gives you another cookie*

      We all love you! So don't give up on yourself, because I won't give up on you and no one else will either.

      - Sundai (Adelinetta) <3

      I can't top that advice especially cause CONTAINS TRIGGERS I cut and harm myself. Definitely don't do it. 
      • sobs* thank you so much, I know I sound dumb but I'm a sappy naive idiot and I needed to hear this *hugs back and breaks cookie(s) in half to share* <3
      Awww sorry you guys! Also that is good advice! Here is a little mousey to cheer you up
      6C4F5298-0C61-48CC-94CC-09A62291BBE2

      I rescued her from the wild! Her eyes have started cracking open finally. Her name is pheobe

      ​​​​​​​
      We rescued a turtle which was on the road but we put it back in the wild....cute mouse btw!

      Aww thats cute! Thanks

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    • BLACK LIVES MATTER!!!

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    • Hia y'all I am back from kayaking we did it for no lie 3 and a half hours

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    • Hi all,

      I am white and if you are white like me, then our job  is to stand up for Black/brown people. And if you are black/brown stand up for yourself. You have a right to be here just as much as whites!

      I just want to say that if you are raceist than you have a very very horible mental ilness. Much worse than anyones ilness that was mentioned on this page. I hope that if anyone here is raciest, you ask me for help to cure it.

      Many of us are not able to go to marches, so what you can do is repost this or write your own all over the internet. However, take out take out the way worse than any ilness mentioned on this page part, because it would not make sense on a other page. I will be so proud if you copy post it everywere. well, not litaraly everywere :) .

      Sincerly,

      Samma aka SAA

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    • my name is pernouced: Saaaah- maaaah.

      -Samma

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    • Okay guys I am ready to post my rant. You don't have to read it, but I would appreciate it very much if you did.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • This is --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn, by the way.

      Okay. Here goes...

      You don't have to read all of this. It is a description of my life "problems." It was actually really hard to write out because I've never shared any of it... so...

      MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS

      My dad:

      My dad has ADHD and clinical depression. He had an abusive childhood and feels really bad when anything goes wrong. He tends to feel bad about himself a lot even if someone mentions something completely unrelated to him or something he's done.

      I love and trust him with my life but I don't really feel like I can go to him because it might make him feel bad for some reason.

      He has had 5 surgeries in the last 2.5 years, and he was in life-threatening danger for one of them. He still can't lift objects over 20 pounds and has also lost feeling in his right foot. He is in need of another surgery, possibly two.

      He has a medical condition called sleep apnea, so he has to wear a special mask attached to a machine when he sleeps. He also has something called sarcoidosis. It is an auto-immune disease, which means that he is at a high risk for COVID-19. He constantly has the symptoms of a bad cold and is always in a lot of pain. Sarcoidosis means that, pretty much, he has these clumps of stuff inside his lungs. He has trouble breathing. The sarcoidosis has recently spread to his bones, making him weak and tired. And that isn't all.

      My mom:

      My mom has a condition similar to multiple sclerosis (MS). The doctors and neurologists have diagnosed her with FMD, which stands for functional movement disorder. It is a clinical condition that has almost never been studied. The doctors now know that there's something more that's going on. It isn't just FMD. My mom has something else going on, too, but nobody knows what.

      In early July of 2013, my mom collided with a biker while she was training for a half-marathon. In August, she started having trouble. She falls down all the time without warning. She's had some pretty bad falls. Her body shakes in a seizure-like manner. Her eyes vibrate and roll back into her head. Her memory is depleting. She speaks like a staccato robot and uses the wrong words a lot. She is always exhausted, and feels guilty because she can't take care of us like she used to.

      After about a year of this, she went to MAYO clinic in Minnesota. They ran tests on her and had her try different physical therapy routines. Nothing helped. She returned home two weeks later.

      Another year went by, with no improvement. At this point, my dad was still well enough to support her and our family. Eventually, after things got progressively worse, she and my dad both went to MAYO. They tried more things, but she just kept getting worse.

      When her FMD was new, she'd only have a few falls a month. The tremors weren't as bad, and the eye spasms hadn't begun.

      As time went on, though, the symptoms kept getting worse and worse. My mom was falling dozens of times a day, her tremors were so bad that she was constantly shaking, her eyes were spastic, her memory was getting worse, and she just felt sick. Then my dad's health took a nose-dive too.

      A neurologist gave my mom a prescription that's meant for MS. It was helping a lot. Her falls were less frequent, as were her other symptoms.

      But after only about a month, the med stopped being as helpful. Her symptoms began getting worse again and the one doctor/ neurologist who would actually listen to her moved away.

      I don't feel like I can go to her with this because she's going through enough already. I'm supposed to be her support.

      Both of my parents have jobs. They have two teenagers and an eight-year-old to take care of. With all the health issues on top of it all, they are overwhelmed and exhausted.

      My sister:

      My sister is a pretty average eight-year-old girl. She loves My Little Pony, is overly sensitive, and cries a lot.

      She is actually germaphobic. She is constantly worried that a brown speck on her bedroom door is "bad," or that she needs to wash her hands because she touched the couch.

      Whenever she's worried about something, she yells for our mom. Being the sweet, innocent little girl she is, she doesn't really understand that our burdened mother can't rush down the stairs every time she has a question.

      The responsibility usually falls on me to comfort her and help her pour milk in her cereal because she "can't do it herself."

      My sister is an angel and I love her with my whole heart, but she is eight, and therefore needs a lot of extra time, attention, and unnecessary help.

      And, of course, I can't tell her about all this because she's, well, eight.

      My brother:

      My older brother is definitely a teenage boy. But not in a bad way. He just loves sports, TV, video games, and hanging out with friends. He's really helpful when he's not busy with being a teenager.

      We do get in a lot of arguments because we're teenage siblings that are almost the same age. He loves teasing me and our younger sister. He can be insensitive at times, but he's usually really sweet.

      I can't go to him with my problems because he already makes fun of what he does know about them. He knows about my OCD (which I'll talk about later), and he always says "OCD" when I'm perfecting anything. He isn't trying to be rude, he just doesn't understand how much that hurts me.

      Me:

      Okay. I have diagnosed OCD and anxiety. And I have for years. I did before my mom got her condition. I'm super meticulous about perfection.

      When my brother and I were in the same art class, I spent 4 hours outside of class on a project he and everyone else completed in less than 15 minutes. That was just the name tag.

      On another project, which everybody else took about 3 class periods to complete, I took 13 and a half extra hours at home. (Yes, my dad tracked it.) I would've gotten 100% even if I hadn't spent extra time on it, and I knew that. It just makes me feel like a letdown and I'm always disappointed in myself whenever I get lower than 100%.

      I feel like I need to make everything in my control perfect, including that every time I set something in a corner, I make sure it's exactly the same distance from each edge/ wall. I also make sure that every time I get injured, I feel the same amount of pain on the same spot on the opposite side of my body. Every time I chew something, I have a special counting rhythm that plays in my head. I do three chews on the left, three on the right, then three in the middle. The next bite I take, the rhythm changes. Two chews on my left, two right. The next bite is especially tiny because I just chew once, in the middle. No matter how hard the food is, I always swallow. I also have a rhythm for when I look at the clock, pop my knuckles or back, roll my eyes, snap or clap, turn up (or down) the volume, and even blink. (I'm leaving out a lot of details.)

      I'm always nervous about my mom while I'm at school. My dad is a teacher there, so I can check on him pretty much anytime. But I can't exactly call my mom in the middle of math class because I NEED my 100% on every assignment in every class.

      I'm just always super worried that my mom had or will have a serious fall and really hurt herself, or that she cut herself with a knife during one of her tremors. Maybe she fell down the stairs and broke her leg. Maybe she fell and bashed her head open on a corner. Maybe she can't get help from where she is because she's always forgetting where she put her phone. All the worst scenarios play through my head every day, all the time.

      Sometimes when I'm upset or stressed during lunch, my friends notice. Like good friends, they ask what's up. I feel like I can't unload all of my burdens on them or make them pity me. I don't want pity. I just want all this to end. If I told them, they would know that my life isn't perfect and that I am going through a lot more than I'm letting on. For some reason, that just makes me feel scared, and too vulnerable.

      So when they ask me what's going on, I say, "My favorite character died." Which always works, because I'm always reading and seem to be cursed with bad luck because all my favorites always die. And my friends buy it and leave me alone.

      It feels wrong to lie to them, but I also feel like I cannot really trust them because my longest-lasting friendship was less than two years. Naturally, I feel like they'd gossip or simply stop hanging out with me if I told them what I'm telling you.

      Part of why I don't want to tell anybody is because I feel like a burden. When I was at my aunt's baby shower, the topic of my parents' health came up. My parents were both going through a rough patch and my mom needed some family support. We have a huge family because my mom has nine siblings. Anyway, she started talking about this new treatment that my dad is going to try, and she started having some of her tremors. After a long, drawn-out conversation, she and I were both in tears, and my cousins, aunts, and grandma were taking turns giving me fierce hugs. Then all the women made me promise to reach out if my mom was having a bad day or if I needed anything at all.

      I know. That sounds great. But it was kinda awkward. I just feel like they already know enough about us and our problems. I don't want to unload mine on top of the growing pile. I just feel like anyone I tell would feel obligated to help somehow. I don't want people feeling bad for me or thinking that I am completely unraveled.

      Because I haven't told anyone, all my friends think I'm perfectly happy and that the worst thing in my life is when a character dies in a book. My family doesn't know exactly how much it's all affecting me.

      My friends know I want things to be as good as they can get, but they don't know what level I go to in order to make it that way. My family obviously knows about my OCD and anxiety. They just don't know what I do because of my obsessively compulsive brain. They don't know how much I worry that I might not ever see my mom again.

      I actually do also have a physical health problem of my own. But I doubt any of you want to know about it because it's... not fun. My extended family doesn't even know about it. *forces a smile* With two working parents, a mother with a neurological condition, a father who has a whole lot of health problems, a sister who needs a lot of attention, a teenage brother, OCD, anxiety, and my own health problem, it's kinda hard to be a normal teenager. Not to mention the regular hormones, drama, school, and mood swings of an average teenage girl. I'm very sorry if anyone's at all annoyed that I completely unloaded all this sadness on your perfectly happy day. I just started writing and got a little... carried away. If you read all of that, I thank you very much. If not, that's okay. I understand. NO TRIGGERS - PLEASE READ I really hope that this isn't weird to ask, but if you are religious in any way, shape, or form, I ask you to please say a special prayer for me and my family. I know that may feel a little strange, since you don't really know anything about me, but I would appreciate that very, very much. Does anybody have any advice about any of that? Thanks so much, --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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      This is --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn, by the way.

      Okay. Here goes...

      You don't have to read all of this. It is a description of my life "problems." It was actually really hard to write out because I've never shared any of it... so...

      MAY CONTAIN TRIGGERS

      My dad:

      My dad has ADHD and clinical depression. He had an abusive childhood and feels really bad when anything goes wrong. He tends to feel bad about himself a lot even if someone mentions something completely unrelated to him or something he's done.

      I love and trust him with my life but I don't really feel like I can go to him because it might make him feel bad for some reason.

      He has had 5 surgeries in the last 2.5 years, and he was in life-threatening danger for one of them. He still can't lift objects over 20 pounds and has also lost feeling in his right foot. He is in need of another surgery, possibly two.

      He has a medical condition called sleep apnea, so he has to wear a special mask attached to a machine when he sleeps. He also has something called sarcoidosis. It is an auto-immune disease, which means that he is at a high risk for COVID-19. He constantly has the symptoms of a bad cold and is always in a lot of pain. Sarcoidosis means that, pretty much, he has these clumps of stuff inside his lungs. He has trouble breathing. The sarcoidosis has recently spread to his bones, making him weak and tired. And that isn't all.

      My mom:

      My mom has a condition similar to multiple sclerosis (MS). The doctors and neurologists have diagnosed her with FMD, which stands for functional movement disorder. It is a clinical condition that has almost never been studied. The doctors now know that there's something more that's going on. It isn't just FMD. My mom has something else going on, too, but nobody knows what.

      In early July of 2013, my mom collided with a biker while she was training for a half-marathon. In August, she started having trouble. She falls down all the time without warning. She's had some pretty bad falls. Her body shakes in a seizure-like manner. Her eyes vibrate and roll back into her head. Her memory is depleting. She speaks like a staccato robot and uses the wrong words a lot. She is always exhausted, and feels guilty because she can't take care of us like she used to.

      After about a year of this, she went to MAYO clinic in Minnesota. They ran tests on her and had her try different physical therapy routines. Nothing helped. She returned home two weeks later.

      Another year went by, with no improvement. At this point, my dad was still well enough to support her and our family. Eventually, after things got progressively worse, she and my dad both went to MAYO. They tried more things, but she just kept getting worse.

      When her FMD was new, she'd only have a few falls a month. The tremors weren't as bad, and the eye spasms hadn't begun.

      As time went on, though, the symptoms kept getting worse and worse. My mom was falling dozens of times a day, her tremors were so bad that she was constantly shaking, her eyes were spastic, her memory was getting worse, and she just felt sick. Then my dad's health took a nose-dive too.

      A neurologist gave my mom a prescription that's meant for MS. It was helping a lot. Her falls were less frequent, as were her other symptoms.

      But after only about a month, the med stopped being as helpful. Her symptoms began getting worse again and the one doctor/ neurologist who would actually listen to her moved away.

      I don't feel like I can go to her with this because she's going through enough already. I'm supposed to be her support.

      Both of my parents have jobs. They have two teenagers and an eight-year-old to take care of. With all the health issues on top of it all, they are overwhelmed and exhausted.

      My sister:

      My sister is a pretty average eight-year-old girl. She loves My Little Pony, is overly sensitive, and cries a lot.

      She is actually germaphobic. She is constantly worried that a brown speck on her bedroom door is "bad," or that she needs to wash her hands because she touched the couch.

      Whenever she's worried about something, she yells for our mom. Being the sweet, innocent little girl she is, she doesn't really understand that our burdened mother can't rush down the stairs every time she has a question.

      The responsibility usually falls on me to comfort her and help her pour milk in her cereal because she "can't do it herself."

      My sister is an angel and I love her with my whole heart, but she is eight, and therefore needs a lot of extra time, attention, and unnecessary help.

      And, of course, I can't tell her about all this because she's, well, eight.

      My brother:

      My older brother is definitely a teenage boy. But not in a bad way. He just loves sports, TV, video games, and hanging out with friends. He's really helpful when he's not busy with being a teenager.

      We do get in a lot of arguments because we're teenage siblings that are almost the same age. He loves teasing me and our younger sister. He can be insensitive at times, but he's usually really sweet.

      I can't go to him with my problems because he already makes fun of what he does know about them. He knows about my OCD (which I'll talk about later), and he always says "OCD" when I'm perfecting anything. He isn't trying to be rude, he just doesn't understand how much that hurts me.

      Me:

      Okay. I have diagnosed OCD and anxiety. And I have for years. I did before my mom got her condition. I'm super meticulous about perfection.

      When my brother and I were in the same art class, I spent 4 hours outside of class on a project he and everyone else completed in less than 15 minutes. That was just the name tag.

      On another project, which everybody else took about 3 class periods to complete, I took 13 and a half extra hours at home. (Yes, my dad tracked it.) I would've gotten 100% even if I hadn't spent extra time on it, and I knew that. It just makes me feel like a letdown and I'm always disappointed in myself whenever I get lower than 100%.

      I feel like I need to make everything in my control perfect, including that every time I set something in a corner, I make sure it's exactly the same distance from each edge/ wall. I also make sure that every time I get injured, I feel the same amount of pain on the same spot on the opposite side of my body. Every time I chew something, I have a special counting rhythm that plays in my head. I do three chews on the left, three on the right, then three in the middle. The next bite I take, the rhythm changes. Two chews on my left, two right. The next bite is especially tiny because I just chew once, in the middle. No matter how hard the food is, I always swallow. I also have a rhythm for when I look at the clock, pop my knuckles or back, roll my eyes, snap or clap, turn up (or down) the volume, and even blink. (I'm leaving out a lot of details.)

      I'm always nervous about my mom while I'm at school. My dad is a teacher there, so I can check on him pretty much anytime. But I can't exactly call my mom in the middle of math class because I NEED my 100% on every assignment in every class.

      I'm just always super worried that my mom had or will have a serious fall and really hurt herself, or that she cut herself with a knife during one of her tremors. Maybe she fell down the stairs and broke her leg. Maybe she fell and bashed her head open on a corner. Maybe she can't get help from where she is because she's always forgetting where she put her phone. All the worst scenarios play through my head every day, all the time.

      Sometimes when I'm upset or stressed during lunch, my friends notice. Like good friends, they ask what's up. I feel like I can't unload all of my burdens on them or make them pity me. I don't want pity. I just want all this to end. If I told them, they would know that my life isn't perfect and that I am going through a lot more than I'm letting on. For some reason, that just makes me feel scared, and too vulnerable.

      So when they ask me what's going on, I say, "My favorite character died." Which always works, because I'm always reading and seem to be cursed with bad luck because all my favorites always die. And my friends buy it and leave me alone.

      It feels wrong to lie to them, but I also feel like I cannot really trust them because my longest-lasting friendship was less than two years. Naturally, I feel like they'd gossip or simply stop hanging out with me if I told them what I'm telling you.

      Part of why I don't want to tell anybody is because I feel like a burden. When I was at my aunt's baby shower, the topic of my parents' health came up. My parents were both going through a rough patch and my mom needed some family support. We have a huge family because my mom has nine siblings. Anyway, she started talking about this new treatment that my dad is going to try, and she started having some of her tremors. After a long, drawn-out conversation, she and I were both in tears, and my cousins, aunts, and grandma were taking turns giving me fierce hugs. Then all the women made me promise to reach out if my mom was having a bad day or if I needed anything at all.

      I know. That sounds great. But it was kinda awkward. I just feel like they already know enough about us and our problems. I don't want to unload mine on top of the growing pile. I just feel like anyone I tell would feel obligated to help somehow. I don't want people feeling bad for me or thinking that I am completely unraveled.

      Because I haven't told anyone, all my friends think I'm perfectly happy and that the worst thing in my life is when a character dies in a book. My family doesn't know exactly how much it's all affecting me.

      My friends know I want things to be as good as they can get, but they don't know what level I go to in order to make it that way. My family obviously knows about my OCD and anxiety. They just don't know what I do because of my obsessively compulsive brain. They don't know how much I worry that I might not ever see my mom again.

      I actually do also have a physical health problem of my own. But I doubt any of you want to know about it because it's... not fun. My extended family doesn't even know about it. *forces a smile* With two working parents, a mother with a neurological condition, a father who has a whole lot of health problems, a sister who needs a lot of attention, a teenage brother, OCD, anxiety, and my own health problem, it's kinda hard to be a normal teenager. Not to mention the regular hormones, drama, school, and mood swings of an average teenage girl. I'm very sorry if anyone's at all annoyed that I completely unloaded all this sadness on your perfectly happy day. I just started writing and got a little... carried away. If you read all of that, I thank you very much. If not, that's okay. I understand. NO TRIGGERS - PLEASE READ I really hope that this isn't weird to ask, but if you are religious in any way, shape, or form, I ask you to please say a special prayer for me and my family. I know that may feel a little strange, since you don't really know anything about me, but I would appreciate that very, very much. Does anybody have any advice about any of that? Thanks so much, --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn </div> </div> First of all, I just wanted to say thank you for sharing. That had to have been hard, you're clearly going through a lot and said that you've never shared it with anyone, so thank you for feeling like you can tell us. I'm sorry about your dad and mom. I know I can never begin to understand what you're going through, but I am sorry and hope everything gets a little better soon. I don't have OCD, but I do understand the need to get 100% on everything (though really that's probably the perceived pressure from my parents and my perfectionist standards for myself) I'm sorry you feel like you can't talk to your friends or family, and I definitely understand not wanting pity and not wanting to be a burden. Speaking of pity, I realize that some of my comments can come across as pitying and that's definitely NOT how they're intended, I'm just really bad with words. And I definitely understand everyone thinking you're okay and happy, as well as not wanting to lie but doing it anyway. I hate seeming vulnerable, especially in front of my family (I don't even like closing my eyes in front of my family), and I hate lying but I also don't want to be a burden to people, so I lie and shut people out and it hurts. For the record, I don't think the people in your life would feel obligated to help or think you're unravelled. In the end, if they're family or good friends, all they want is for you to get whatever help you may need and for you to be happy (or, as close to happy as you can be, because happiness is hard). I can't really offer any advice because I'm going through my own problems, some of them rather similar, and my coping mechanisms are... bad. You don't need to apologize, I'm glad you shared. I'm not religious, but my thoughts are with you and your family. Really the only advice I can offer (and this is gonna sound dumb and won't be at all helpful) is to find someone to talk to, whether that's a teacher, family member, friend, or someone on fandom or elsewhere online. But, uh, finding someone to talk to is hard. So I hope you know that you can talk about anything here and I'll listen (or, well, read it, I guess). I also just want to say sorry if anything that I said came off as insensitive, pitying, condescending, rude, or anything like that, it definitely wasn't intended that way. I also realized that parts of this just turned into me venting about my problems (and I don't have the energy to go back and edit... sorry), so I'm sorry about that. Thank you again for sharing, and I hope things get a little better. *hugs* <3
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      First of all, I just wanted to say thank you for sharing. That had to have been hard, you're clearly going through a lot and said that you've never shared it with anyone, so thank you for feeling like you can tell us.

      I'm sorry about your dad and mom. I know I can never begin to understand what you're going through, but I am sorry and hope everything gets a little better soon.

      I don't have OCD, but I do understand the need to get 100% on everything (though really that's probably the perceived pressure from my parents and my perfectionist standards for myself)

      I'm sorry you feel like you can't talk to your friends or family, and I definitely understand not wanting pity and not wanting to be a burden. Speaking of pity, I realize that some of my comments can come across as pitying and that's definitely NOT how they're intended, I'm just really bad with words. And I definitely understand everyone thinking you're okay and happy, as well as not wanting to lie but doing it anyway. I hate seeming vulnerable, especially in front of my family (I don't even like closing my eyes in front of my family), and I hate lying but I also don't want to be a burden to people, so I lie and shut people out and it hurts.

      For the record, I don't think the people in your life would feel obligated to help or think you're unravelled. In the end, if they're family or good friends, all they want is for you to get whatever help you may need and for you to be happy (or, as close to happy as you can be, because happiness is hard). I can't really offer any advice because I'm going through my own problems, some of them rather similar, and my coping mechanisms are... bad.

      You don't need to apologize, I'm glad you shared. I'm not religious, but my thoughts are with you and your family. Really the only advice I can offer (and this is gonna sound dumb and won't be at all helpful) is to find someone to talk to, whether that's a teacher, family member, friend, or someone on fandom or elsewhere online. But, uh, finding someone to talk to is hard. So I hope you know that you can talk about anything here and I'll listen (or, well, read it, I guess).

      I also just want to say sorry if anything that I said came off as insensitive, pitying, condescending, rude, or anything like that, it definitely wasn't intended that way. I also realized that parts of this just turned into me venting about my problems (and I don't have the energy to go back and edit... sorry), so I'm sorry about that. Thank you again for sharing, and I hope things get a little better. *hugs* <3

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    • Thank you. That isn't offensive at all. I will try to find someone to talk to. It might be you guys for a while, though. I was thinking it would be someone outside of my family because they already know what's going on. I just don't know which friend I can trust.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • The sad thing about life is that on the journey to finding people you can rely on, people are going to break your trust. But life is really hard to get through if you don't have anyone you can talk to... life hurts. Life really hurts sometimes. Someday, I hope, we'll find people who give us reason to believe that the world isn't as bad as it seems. But until then, I'm here.

      Sorry, I'm in a bad place right now....

      -EmpatheticTelepath (I figured it would probably be nice to be someone other than a random A FANDOM user XD... I've never gone by this name elsewhere)

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    • Thanks. It's good to know that I'm not alone and that I can post anything on here.

      I'm here for you, too.

      And your username is 👌🏻.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • 104.218.157.252 wrote:
      Thanks. It's good to know that I'm not alone and that I can post anything on here.

      I'm here for you, too.

      And your username is 👌🏻.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

      I agree with empatheticTelapath, telling someone about whats going on is one of the best things you can do. It can be really hard, and i don't blame you for worrying about being a burden, or getting pity. And, to be honest, people at school have big mouths, so if you tell someone, make sure its someone you can trust, like your aunts (who sound very nice). I will definitely keep your family in my prayers 😊. I really hope you feel better and your family stays healthy during this hard time!

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    • 71.121.240.192 wrote:
      The sad thing about life is that on the journey to finding people you can rely on, people are going to break your trust. But life is really hard to get through if you don't have anyone you can talk to... life hurts. Life really hurts sometimes. Someday, I hope, we'll find people who give us reason to believe that the world isn't as bad as it seems. But until then, I'm here.

      Sorry, I'm in a bad place right now....

      -EmpatheticTelepath (I figured it would probably be nice to be someone other than a random A FANDOM user XD... I've never gone by this name elsewhere)

      I believe that soon, god is going to destroy all bad people, and we will live forever on a paradise earth, where there will be no sickness, death, sadness, pain, or suffering, and everyone will live together in peace, including the animals! I hope that makes you feel better, and if you want you can ask me anything, too.  ​​​​​​​-eggs

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      71.121.240.192 wrote:
      The sad thing about life is that on the journey to finding people you can rely on, people are going to break your trust. But life is really hard to get through if you don't have anyone you can talk to... life hurts. Life really hurts sometimes. Someday, I hope, we'll find people who give us reason to believe that the world isn't as bad as it seems. But until then, I'm here.

      Sorry, I'm in a bad place right now....

      -EmpatheticTelepath (I figured it would probably be nice to be someone other than a random A FANDOM user XD... I've never gone by this name elsewhere)

      I believe that soon, god is going to destroy all bad people, and we will live forever on a paradise earth, where there will be no sickness, death, sadness, pain, or suffering, and everyone will live together in peace, including the animals! I hope that makes you feel better, and if you want you can ask me anything, too. 

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      That sounds amazing but I have one question. I belive in god, but I'm not bapitized and don't own a copy of the bible. Would god destroy the poeple that haven't been to church or don't own a bible? SOrry if this sounds immature I just really wonder

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    • Thank you very, very much. I might tell my cousin, because she has been my friend for my whole life. She was one of the ones at the baby shower, and we talk about everything together. Thank you for encouraging me to tell somebody and for being here for me and all my rants.

      I believe the same, SuddenlyFriedEggs. That's what I remind myself whenever my parents or I are having particularly bad days.

      Thank you all again for the good advice and for making this thread in the first place.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • I'm not religious but I can hope that that will happen!

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    • hi 
      so my friend and I were working on a project and I had worked on the project a bunch beforehand and I shared everything with her, and now she decided to work on the same project without me. but she has all my work and there's no rules against her using my work. she probably won't understand it that much because I work at a very abstract level but i feel really bad because we're both going to be judged and it's a competetive thing and she has no morals against using my work, so she probably will. and that means that she might be judged higher than me even though it's all my work that she's using. i just feel like I'm drowning because i'm working solo now and she has all my work and she could win the competition with my work. and I can't tell her to not use it because that would draw attention to it and then she will for certain use my work. 
      sorry for sharing this, it's not directly mental-health related but I just feel super super guilty and angry and sad and lost for some reason because my parents have a lot of faith in me and I failed them completely. 

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    • 204.195.19.176 wrote:
      hi 
      so my friend and I were working on a project and I had worked on the project a bunch beforehand and I shared everything with her, and now she decided to work on the same project without me. but she has all my work and there's no rules against her using my work. she probably won't understand it that much because I work at a very abstract level but i feel really bad because we're both going to be judged and it's a competetive thing and she has no morals against using my work, so she probably will. and that means that she might be judged higher than me even though it's all my work that she's using. i just feel like I'm drowning because i'm working solo now and she has all my work and she could win the competition with my work. and I can't tell her to not use it because that would draw attention to it and then she will for certain use my work. 
      sorry for sharing this, it's not directly mental-health related but I just feel super super guilty and angry and sad and lost for some reason because my parents have a lot of faith in me and I failed them completely. 

      you didn't fail anyone. You should tell your friend not to use your work

      If she asks why then tell her that its your work and that you don't want her taking credit for something thats not her's

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    • Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      204.195.19.176 wrote:
      hi 
      so my friend and I were working on a project and I had worked on the project a bunch beforehand and I shared everything with her, and now she decided to work on the same project without me. but she has all my work and there's no rules against her using my work. she probably won't understand it that much because I work at a very abstract level but i feel really bad because we're both going to be judged and it's a competetive thing and she has no morals against using my work, so she probably will. and that means that she might be judged higher than me even though it's all my work that she's using. i just feel like I'm drowning because i'm working solo now and she has all my work and she could win the competition with my work. and I can't tell her to not use it because that would draw attention to it and then she will for certain use my work. 
      sorry for sharing this, it's not directly mental-health related but I just feel super super guilty and angry and sad and lost for some reason because my parents have a lot of faith in me and I failed them completely. 
      you didn't fail anyone. You should tell your friend not to use your work

      If she asks why then tell her that its your work and that you don't want her taking credit for something thats not her's

      That's good advice. Your friend shouldn't take credit.

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    • 73.164.148.243 wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      71.121.240.192 wrote:
      The sad thing about life is that on the journey to finding people you can rely on, people are going to break your trust. But life is really hard to get through if you don't have anyone you can talk to... life hurts. Life really hurts sometimes. Someday, I hope, we'll find people who give us reason to believe that the world isn't as bad as it seems. But until then, I'm here.

      Sorry, I'm in a bad place right now....

      -EmpatheticTelepath (I figured it would probably be nice to be someone other than a random A FANDOM user XD... I've never gone by this name elsewhere)

      I believe that soon, god is going to destroy all bad people, and we will live forever on a paradise earth, where there will be no sickness, death, sadness, pain, or suffering, and everyone will live together in peace, including the animals! I hope that makes you feel better, and if you want you can ask me anything, too. 

      ​​​​​​​-eggs

      That sounds amazing but I have one question. I belive in god, but I'm not bapitized and don't own a copy of the bible. Would god destroy the poeple that haven't been to church or don't own a bible? SOrry if this sounds immature I just really wonder

        

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    • 204.195.19.176 wrote:
      hi 
      so my friend and I were working on a project and I had worked on the project a bunch beforehand and I shared everything with her, and now she decided to work on the same project without me. but she has all my work and there's no rules against her using my work. she probably won't understand it that much because I work at a very abstract level but i feel really bad because we're both going to be judged and it's a competetive thing and she has no morals against using my work, so she probably will. and that means that she might be judged higher than me even though it's all my work that she's using. i just feel like I'm drowning because i'm working solo now and she has all my work and she could win the competition with my work. and I can't tell her to not use it because that would draw attention to it and then she will for certain use my work. 
      sorry for sharing this, it's not directly mental-health related but I just feel super super guilty and angry and sad and lost for some reason because my parents have a lot of faith in me and I failed them completely. 

      No offense but I don't like your friend. 

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    • 73.164.148.243 wrote:
      73.164.148.243 wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      71.121.240.192 wrote:
      The sad thing about life is that on the journey to finding people you can rely on, people are going to break your trust. But life is really hard to get through if you don't have anyone you can talk to... life hurts. Life really hurts sometimes. Someday, I hope, we'll find people who give us reason to believe that the world isn't as bad as it seems. But until then, I'm here.

      Sorry, I'm in a bad place right now....

      -EmpatheticTelepath (I figured it would probably be nice to be someone other than a random A FANDOM user XD... I've never gone by this name elsewhere)

      I believe that soon, god is going to destroy all bad people, and we will live forever on a paradise earth, where there will be no sickness, death, sadness, pain, or suffering, and everyone will live together in peace, including the animals! I hope that makes you feel better, and if you want you can ask me anything, too. 

      ​​​​​​​-eggs

      That sounds amazing but I have one question. I belive in god, but I'm not bapitized and don't own a copy of the bible. Would god destroy the poeple that haven't been to church or don't own a bible? SOrry if this sounds immature I just really wonder
        

      The problem with that is, how do you decide who's a bad person and who's a good person? If someone wasn't religious or didn't believe in God, would that make them a bad person? Also, I personally believe that no one is explicitly or inherently good or bad. We're all just humans trying to navigate a treacherous world. Would a wrong decision made for the right reason make someone bad? Would a right decision made for the wrong reason make someone bad? Who decides what the wrong and right reasons and decisions are? In the end, we're all human, and the only things we can be certain of are that we have the power to make choices for ourselves in life and that the past is irreversible. Also, the problem with a paradise earth is that everyone has different ideas of paradise. A perfect utopian world is unattainable and would only end up as a dystopia. Sorry for being so negative, I just find it really interesting to think about all the different paradoxes and implications and outcomes and stuff. Also, huge thank you for including the other animals, this vegetarian is very happy someone else is thinking about them :) <3

      I really do hope that things can get better someday though. Until then, ily and I'm here and hopefully we'll make it through

      -EmpatheticTelepath

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    • 71.121.240.192 wrote:
      73.164.148.243 wrote:
      73.164.148.243 wrote:
      SuddenlyFriedEggs wrote:
      71.121.240.192 wrote:
      The sad thing about life is that on the journey to finding people you can rely on, people are going to break your trust. But life is really hard to get through if you don't have anyone you can talk to... life hurts. Life really hurts sometimes. Someday, I hope, we'll find people who give us reason to believe that the world isn't as bad as it seems. But until then, I'm here.

      Sorry, I'm in a bad place right now....

      -EmpatheticTelepath (I figured it would probably be nice to be someone other than a random A FANDOM user XD... I've never gone by this name elsewhere)

      I believe that soon, god is going to destroy all bad people, and we will live forever on a paradise earth, where there will be no sickness, death, sadness, pain, or suffering, and everyone will live together in peace, including the animals! I hope that makes you feel better, and if you want you can ask me anything, too. 

      ​​​​​​​-eggs

      That sounds amazing but I have one question. I belive in god, but I'm not bapitized and don't own a copy of the bible. Would god destroy the poeple that haven't been to church or don't own a bible? SOrry if this sounds immature I just really wonder
        
      The problem with that is, how do you decide who's a bad person and who's a good person? If someone wasn't religious or didn't believe in God, would that make them a bad person? Also, I personally believe that no one is explicitly or inherently good or bad. We're all just humans trying to navigate a treacherous world. Would a wrong decision made for the right reason make someone bad? Would a right decision made for the wrong reason make someone bad? Who decides what the wrong and right reasons and decisions are? In the end, we're all human, and the only things we can be certain of are that we have the power to make choices for ourselves in life and that the past is irreversible. Also, the problem with a paradise earth is that everyone has different ideas of paradise. A perfect utopian world is unattainable and would only end up as a dystopia. Sorry for being so negative, I just find it really interesting to think about all the different paradoxes and implications and outcomes and stuff. Also, huge thank you for including the other animals, this vegetarian is very happy someone else is thinking about them :) <3

      I really do hope that things can get better someday though. Until then, ily and I'm here and hopefully we'll make it through

      -EmpatheticTelepath

      Just continuing the philosophical conversation... (lolz)

      Isn't destroying equal to killing, and killing is a sin? Would God be sinning by destroying people, even if they're bad? (also, who's bad and who's good? it's all relative. yes killing is bad but what about self-defence? would you go to hell for killing someone in self-defence?)

      What is health without sickness? What is life without death? What is joy without sadness? What is pleasure without pain? What is enjoyment without suffering? Without the opposite, these good things will be easily and quickly taken for granted by the imperfect, "sinful" humans. 

      And btw THANK YOU for including the animals. I am vegetarian too, so I really appreciate it. lolz

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    • 73.164.148.243 That sounds amazing but I have one question. I belive in god, but I'm not bapitized and don't own a copy of the bible. Would god destroy the poeple that haven't been to church or don't own a bible? SOrry if this sounds immature I just really wonder

      First of all, thank you for asking. My religion believes that, no, God would not punish you for something that isn't your fault. If you aren't able to be baptized into His church in this life, you will have a chance to be baptized in the years after death and before the judgement. You will have a chance to learn His gospel and to repent of your sins. We believe that God is fair and loves all of His children. He would only punish you if you knew of His gospel and its truth, but rejected it.

      Our religion also believes in another book of scriptures that is separate from the Bible. It is called The Book of Mormon. It's a sort of addition to the Bible, in a way. I would advise you to read it and think about its contents. God wants us all to live with Him again, and He has provided us with the Book of Mormon so that we can go back to live with Him and His Son in eternal paradise.

      That answer was probably a bit longer than what you wanted, but, to answer your question more directly, no. He wouldn't.

      Please ask more questions if you have any. I am very happy to answer them and I hope you will ask. I hope my response doesn't make anybody feel uncomfortable.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • Hia so if you don't want to hear about my problems then you don't have to read this:I have been really stressed out about nothing absolutely nothing and I don't know why so I have been staying up at night and I don't know what I should do about it I don't have a therapist and I don't want to talk about it with my family so what should I do?btw my mind is in a dark place so I was thinking about continuing it till I really must have to sleep.



      sorry about that you don't have to answer or quote this just to give me an answer about my stupid problems you don't have to care. 

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    • That's been happening to me too, and... I'm not sure what to do, really.

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    • 104.218.157.252 wrote:
      73.164.148.243

      That sounds amazing but I have one question. I belive in god, but I'm not bapitized and don't own a copy of the bible. Would god destroy the poeple that haven't been to church or don't own a bible? SOrry if this sounds immature I just really wonder

      First of all, thank you for asking. My religion believes that, no, God would not punish you for something that isn't your fault. If you aren't able to be baptized into His church in this life, you will have a chance to be baptized in the years after death and before the judgement. You will have a chance to learn His gospel and to repent of your sins. We believe that God is fair and loves all of His children. He would only punish you if you knew of His gospel and its truth, but rejected it.

      Our religion also believes in another book of scriptures that is separate from the Bible. It is called The Book of Mormon. It's a sort of addition to the Bible, in a way. I would advise you to read it and think about its contents. God wants us all to live with Him again, and He has provided us with the Book of Mormon so that we can go back to live with Him and His Son in eternal paradise.

      That answer was probably a bit longer than what you wanted, but, to answer your question more directly, no. He wouldn't.

      Please ask more questions if you have any. I am very happy to answer them and I hope you will ask. I hope my response doesn't make anybody feel uncomfortable.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

      Thank you!!!! Thats exactly what I needed to hear

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    • So lately i've been on fandom a lot and i think thats part of why i've been feeling bad.

      I can't watch something without pausing it and checking fandom and i feel like thats a bad thing.

      So i decided to not quit fandom but to take a break for a month come back for a month go for a month come back for a month ect.

      Sooooo i'm leaving in August and coming back in Sectempter (spelled that wrong but idc) 

      I actually think its good i'm leaving in August cause thats when school starts.

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    • 73.164.148.243 wrote:

      104.218.157.252 wrote:
      73.164.148.243

      That sounds amazing but I have one question. I belive in god, but I'm not bapitized and don't own a copy of the bible. Would god destroy the poeple that haven't been to church or don't own a bible? SOrry if this sounds immature I just really wonder

      First of all, thank you for asking. My religion believes that, no, God would not punish you for something that isn't your fault. If you aren't able to be baptized into His church in this life, you will have a chance to be baptized in the years after death and before the judgement. You will have a chance to learn His gospel and to repent of your sins. We believe that God is fair and loves all of His children. He would only punish you if you knew of His gospel and its truth, but rejected it.

      Our religion also believes in another book of scriptures that is separate from the Bible. It is called The Book of Mormon. It's a sort of addition to the Bible, in a way. I would advise you to read it and think about its contents. God wants us all to live with Him again, and He has provided us with the Book of Mormon so that we can go back to live with Him and His Son in eternal paradise.

      That answer was probably a bit longer than what you wanted, but, to answer your question more directly, no. He wouldn't.

      Please ask more questions if you have any. I am very happy to answer them and I hope you will ask. I hope my response doesn't make anybody feel uncomfortable.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

      Thank you!!!! Thats exactly what I needed to hear

      I am also a part of that same faith. And I agree, no he would not.

      -EllaTheElephant

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    • Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      So lately i've been on fandom a lot and i think thats part of why i've been feeling bad.

      I can't watch something without pausing it and checking fandom and i feel like thats a bad thing.

      So i decided to not quit fandom but to take a break for a month come back for a month go for a month come back for a month ect.

      Sooooo i'm leaving in August and coming back in Sectempter (spelled that wrong but idc) 

      I actually think its good i'm leaving in August cause thats when school starts.

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    • 73.164.148.243 wrote:

      104.218.157.252 wrote:
      73.164.148.243

      That sounds amazing but I have one question. I belive in god, but I'm not bapitized and don't own a copy of the bible. Would god destroy the poeple that haven't been to church or don't own a bible? SOrry if this sounds immature I just really wonder

      First of all, thank you for asking. My religion believes that, no, God would not punish you for something that isn't your fault. If you aren't able to be baptized into His church in this life, you will have a chance to be baptized in the years after death and before the judgement. You will have a chance to learn His gospel and to repent of your sins. We believe that God is fair and loves all of His children. He would only punish you if you knew of His gospel and its truth, but rejected it.

      Our religion also believes in another book of scriptures that is separate from the Bible. It is called The Book of Mormon. It's a sort of addition to the Bible, in a way. I would advise you to read it and think about its contents. God wants us all to live with Him again, and He has provided us with the Book of Mormon so that we can go back to live with Him and His Son in eternal paradise.

      That answer was probably a bit longer than what you wanted, but, to answer your question more directly, no. He wouldn't.

      Please ask more questions if you have any. I am very happy to answer them and I hope you will ask. I hope my response doesn't make anybody feel uncomfortable.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

      Thank you!!!! Thats exactly what I needed to hear

      Of course!! I'm very glad that helped. I am happy to answer any other questions you may have.

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • can i join? im not rlly sure how this wor--...?

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    • oh wait nvm j read the top lol

      k so i desperatly need advice-

      .*** MAY CONTAIN TRGGERS

      When I was younger I had a friend. She was not-so popular (not tht it matters j trying 2 illustrate her 2 u guys), had an i-dont-care-anyways attitude, super creative, fun and sweet. So i became friends w her, nothing wrong. problem was, she belonged 2 a group of friends. there is NOTHING wrong w having friends or belonging in a group, its j tht these girls were notorious 4 shutting ppl out and sticking 2 themselves. so when i became friends w this girl it sorta became an issue...

      a few months later, no drama-> became super good friends w this girl; we hung out, ft every nite etc, then we made a pact abt something (not related wht it was abt) and she went behind my back and broke it. i heard abt it and bc i didnt believe it, i went 2 look 4 myself and it was tru. i was crushed. so i decided 2 shut her out. wether this was right or wrong idk anymore, but ths wht i did.

      and it lasted 2 yrs.

      she never apologized once. 

      i moved on, made new friends, grew more emotionally mature etc. but i still remembered how good friends we were and etc. we ended up going the same path and ended up in the same school. she changed, i changed, so we sorta started 2 rebuild r friendship. then i found out...(so dramatic lol)

      she was doing things tht i wld not dream of doing @ r age, and was j doing things tht were completely unacceptable in r community and in any society. 

      i will say tho, she has a rlly rlly hard life. her family is emotionally broken, she is the youngest, and she has special needs siblings who r in their 20's and still live @ home, depriving her of attention tht she needs. she sorta 'gets on by herself' if u know wht i mean. 

      anyways so here she was years later, a totally new person, who was the subject of gossip, and scorned by every1. 

      i was shockeddddd. wht did she become? and why did/does she do this? 

      then it hit me. it was my fault. i broke r friendship w/out a thght and bc of tht she turned in2 who she was. i was struggling w this guilt 4 monthsss and i ignored my friends and family and tried 2 figure it out myself.  i literally cracked from the guilt. anything she did, anything any1 said abt her i cringed and internally hit myself. i legit lost myself. i wldnt go 2 sleep @ nite 4 hoursss, i barely ate, i cldnt focus in school. it was all this internal struggle and i was stuck w this decision:

      i cldnt help bc she was influential, and if i befriended her again, i wld get dragged in2 things tht i def did NOT want 2 b a part of. but i cldnt j let her sink 2 the lowest of the low like this...

      tht was a few months ago and i decided in the end 2 j distract her from wht she was doing. i texted her @ times when i knew she was going 2 b off doing certian things/meeting w certian ppl. and it worked 4 a little bit. she was clearly glad 2 have my friendship back, and i wasnt thrilled @ who she was now, but i knew i was helping her so i cld get over it. 

      eventually i found out more and more abt her, and she said tht everything she did was bc of herself and her own choices. i still felt a little bit of guilt so i brushed this off and still blamed it on myself. 

      now shes dragging me in2 her drama, and my friends ask why im still associated w her and i cant tell them tht its all my fault and tht they dont rlly know her. i still feel responsible 4 her and rn shes going thru a tough time, and i cant ditch her when i still feel guilty and i tried letting her go. i did. for 2 years, but it j didnt work and every1 is telling me 2 j drop it and leave it, its her fault her decisions and she has 2 find herself. but i cant. 

      she talks abt suicide and death and hurting ppl and ik tht shes 'kidding' but tbh some part of me knows tht shes not. on some level she isnt. and i knowww tht. its all fun and games and joking and kidding until something happens. and im stressed out, and ik things r abt 2 get rocky bc she spent monthsss convincing ppl something abt her and ik its not tru and its abt 2 b revealed and blow up in her face.

      i cant leave her by herself. 

      i need advice plzzzzzzz!!!! i want advice from a perspective of ppl who dont know her....

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    • Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      So lately i've been on fandom a lot and i think thats part of why i've been feeling bad.

      I can't watch something without pausing it and checking fandom and i feel like thats a bad thing.

      So i decided to not quit fandom but to take a break for a month come back for a month go for a month come back for a month ect.

      Sooooo i'm leaving in August and coming back in Sectempter (spelled that wrong but idc) 

      I actually think its good i'm leaving in August cause thats when school starts.

      Aw, baiii

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    • Lexbexrex wrote:
      Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      Keefe'sGirlie wrote:
      So lately i've been on fandom a lot and i think thats part of why i've been feeling bad.

      I can't watch something without pausing it and checking fandom and i feel like thats a bad thing.

      So i decided to not quit fandom but to take a break for a month come back for a month go for a month come back for a month ect.

      Sooooo i'm leaving in August and coming back in Sectempter (spelled that wrong but idc) 

      I actually think its good i'm leaving in August cause thats when school starts.

      Aw, baiii

      well its not goodbye yet considering i leave in a month xD

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    • "yes killing is bad but what about self-defence? would you go to hell for killing someone in self-defence?)

      And btw THANK YOU for including the animals. I am vegetarian too, so I really appreciate it."

      No. You'd only be punished for killing on purpose, and not in self defense. Of course, you'd want to steer clear of that, but if it's necessary to your safety, or you're in a war or something, no. God would not destroy you.

      We believe that yes, all animals that served their purpose on this Earth will be saved, too. We will all live in harmony- the animals too.

      I don't know if you meant to get an answer or if you were just thinking out loud. :) --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • Keefe-Makes-No-Sense-en wrote:
      oh wait nvm j read the top lol

      k so i desperatly need advice-

      .*** MAY CONTAIN TRGGERS

      When I was younger I had a friend. She was not-so popular (not tht it matters j trying 2 illustrate her 2 u guys), had an i-dont-care-anyways attitude, super creative, fun and sweet. So i became friends w her, nothing wrong. problem was, she belonged 2 a group of friends. there is NOTHING wrong w having friends or belonging in a group, its j tht these girls were notorious 4 shutting ppl out and sticking 2 themselves. so when i became friends w this girl it sorta became an issue...

      a few months later, no drama-> became super good friends w this girl; we hung out, ft every nite etc, then we made a pact abt something (not related wht it was abt) and she went behind my back and broke it. i heard abt it and bc i didnt believe it, i went 2 look 4 myself and it was tru. i was crushed. so i decided 2 shut her out. wether this was right or wrong idk anymore, but ths wht i did.

      and it lasted 2 yrs.

      she never apologized once. 

      i moved on, made new friends, grew more emotionally mature etc. but i still remembered how good friends we were and etc. we ended up going the same path and ended up in the same school. she changed, i changed, so we sorta started 2 rebuild r friendship. then i found out...(so dramatic lol)

      she was doing things tht i wld not dream of doing @ r age, and was j doing things tht were completely unacceptable in r community and in any society. 

      i will say tho, she has a rlly rlly hard life. her family is emotionally broken, she is the youngest, and she has special needs siblings who r in their 20's and still live @ home, depriving her of attention tht she needs. she sorta 'gets on by herself' if u know wht i mean. 

      anyways so here she was years later, a totally new person, who was the subject of gossip, and scorned by every1. 

      i was shockeddddd. wht did she become? and why did/does she do this? 

      then it hit me. it was my fault. i broke r friendship w/out a thght and bc of tht she turned in2 who she was. i was struggling w this guilt 4 monthsss and i ignored my friends and family and tried 2 figure it out myself.  i literally cracked from the guilt. anything she did, anything any1 said abt her i cringed and internally hit myself. i legit lost myself. i wldnt go 2 sleep @ nite 4 hoursss, i barely ate, i cldnt focus in school. it was all this internal struggle and i was stuck w this decision:

      i cldnt help bc she was influential, and if i befriended her again, i wld get dragged in2 things tht i def did NOT want 2 b a part of. but i cldnt j let her sink 2 the lowest of the low like this...

      tht was a few months ago and i decided in the end 2 j distract her from wht she was doing. i texted her @ times when i knew she was going 2 b off doing certian things/meeting w certian ppl. and it worked 4 a little bit. she was clearly glad 2 have my friendship back, and i wasnt thrilled @ who she was now, but i knew i was helping her so i cld get over it. 

      eventually i found out more and more abt her, and she said tht everything she did was bc of herself and her own choices. i still felt a little bit of guilt so i brushed this off and still blamed it on myself. 

      now shes dragging me in2 her drama, and my friends ask why im still associated w her and i cant tell them tht its all my fault and tht they dont rlly know her. i still feel responsible 4 her and rn shes going thru a tough time, and i cant ditch her when i still feel guilty and i tried letting her go. i did. for 2 years, but it j didnt work and every1 is telling me 2 j drop it and leave it, its her fault her decisions and she has 2 find herself. but i cant. 

      she talks abt suicide and death and hurting ppl and ik tht shes 'kidding' but tbh some part of me knows tht shes not. on some level she isnt. and i knowww tht. its all fun and games and joking and kidding until something happens. and im stressed out, and ik things r abt 2 get rocky bc she spent monthsss convincing ppl something abt her and ik its not tru and its abt 2 b revealed and blow up in her face.

      i cant leave her by herself. 

      i need advice plzzzzzzz!!!! i want advice from a perspective of ppl who dont know her....

      [WARNING: I am a homeschooler with so few friends that I can count all of them on one hand. I have never been involved in drama, and I've never had any friend like the person you're describing. All my suggestions are merely what I'd do in a fictional scenario, so take it with a grain of salt, or just don't follow my advice! lolz. Okay. Got that? Great! Let's continue.]

      Wow your friend sounds like a very troubled person. 

      If I were you, I would just ditch her and cut her off completely, regardless of what she might do because of it. Her situation is obviously not my fault, because if you can't get over 1 friend leaving you, you're bound for faliure later in life. And anyone who does things like she does is not worthy of my friendship. Whatever she does is her own choice, and if she can't differentiate good things from bad things in her life, then she's obviously not intelligent enough for my standards. In addition, drama is never good, because it might leave a dark stain on your resume/background check in the future. I would just ditch her, regardless of anything she might do because of it. 

      Then again, the goal here is to help her find redemption, right? So you might want to stay close to her and be her only supporter. Using that influence, you would be able to manipulate her to be a better person and leave behind all the drama she generated for herself. 

      Here's a rule you can follow: if she's a pathological liar (which means she lies for no reason and without evidence to back up her lie) then what you do doesn't matter, because she will end up in the center of her web of lies and illusion with the predators surrounding her. Do you want to be caught with her? No. So get out while you still can. 

      If she is a skilled liar, with evidence to back up her lies, then learn from her and try to convince her to be a better person. If you turn against her, she may get competetive and manipulate the whole school against you. Either way, handle her carefully and make sure she thinks you're on her side completely, especially if she's manipulative or anything like that that could be dangerous to you in the future. 

      If she is just a person who has lost her way completely (and no danger to you), sit her down and try to convince her to be a better person by showing her the outcomes of what she might be planning next. Let her know that you're on her side but she might want to start being a better person because [insert logic, facts, and reason]. 

      Life advice: DON'T GET CAUGHT UP IN SOMEONE ELSE'S DRAMA. Unless you value her friendship so much that you're willing to rake yourself through the coals of gossip just to keep her.  

      And remind yourself that NOTHING SHE DID WAS YOUR FAULT. At all. You think she was affected by your breakup? Nah. She probably brushed it off within a week or 2, then got influenced by something else which really turned her bad and lost. 

      And whenever she mentions suicide and death and hurting people, record it so you'll have evidence to support your future argument in court in the case that she does something bad to herself, you, or anyone else with evidence pointing it to her. 

      (BTW, you should probably know that I don't have a lot of friends (most likely because I'm brutally honest and don't care what others think and prioritise my resume and future over any interpersonal relationship).)

      Good luck and I hope this helped? Eh. Idk. Remember to take it with a grain of salt, or just don't follow my advice.

      - Adeli

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    • ((TRIGGER WARNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!))

      So, I need to get this out. My mom and I were having a conversation about my anxiety tonight (which is getting worse and worse every day because of all the crap going on in my life right now) and she told me that (and I quote) "you should just try to be happy and not worry. Clearly, you aren't if you still are getting anxious about small things." That's like telling someone that has a cold to stop being sick. It doesn't work that way. She doesn't understand that because she doesn't have my issues. And then she told me that "YOU are choosing to be anxious and sad and angry so just think happy for once and it will go away." I hate it when people think that anxiety makes you, like, incapable to be happy or something. IT doesn't. I have def been happy before. And when I finally admitted to her that my OCD is really bad and not mild, her helpful advice was "Just tell the OCD thoughts to go away!" And I felt like screaming what the ****! That is like, the worst mental illness advice I've ever heard! (And I've heard some interesting suggestions so...) People literally don't get anxiety. Does anyone else feel the same way?

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    • OH. MY. GOSH.

      That reminds me of the time I complained to my mom about all the crap I was going through and she told me to "stop feeling sorry for yourself"

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    • RaeWood739 wrote: OH. MY. GOSH.

      That reminds me of the time I complained to my mom about all the crap I was going through and she told me to "stop feeling sorry for yourself"

      That's what I got told too!

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    • I've been told that so many times and it's just ughhhhhhh

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    • 204.195.19.176 wrote:
      Keefe-Makes-No-Sense-en wrote:
      oh wait nvm j read the top lol

      k so i desperatly need advice-

      .*** MAY CONTAIN TRGGERS

      When I was younger I had a friend. She was not-so popular (not tht it matters j trying 2 illustrate her 2 u guys), had an i-dont-care-anyways attitude, super creative, fun and sweet. So i became friends w her, nothing wrong. problem was, she belonged 2 a group of friends. there is NOTHING wrong w having friends or belonging in a group, its j tht these girls were notorious 4 shutting ppl out and sticking 2 themselves. so when i became friends w this girl it sorta became an issue...

      a few months later, no drama-> became super good friends w this girl; we hung out, ft every nite etc, then we made a pact abt something (not related wht it was abt) and she went behind my back and broke it. i heard abt it and bc i didnt believe it, i went 2 look 4 myself and it was tru. i was crushed. so i decided 2 shut her out. wether this was right or wrong idk anymore, but ths wht i did.

      and it lasted 2 yrs.

      she never apologized once. 

      i moved on, made new friends, grew more emotionally mature etc. but i still remembered how good friends we were and etc. we ended up going the same path and ended up in the same school. she changed, i changed, so we sorta started 2 rebuild r friendship. then i found out...(so dramatic lol)

      she was doing things tht i wld not dream of doing @ r age, and was j doing things tht were completely unacceptable in r community and in any society. 

      i will say tho, she has a rlly rlly hard life. her family is emotionally broken, she is the youngest, and she has special needs siblings who r in their 20's and still live @ home, depriving her of attention tht she needs. she sorta 'gets on by herself' if u know wht i mean. 

      anyways so here she was years later, a totally new person, who was the subject of gossip, and scorned by every1. 

      i was shockeddddd. wht did she become? and why did/does she do this? 

      then it hit me. it was my fault. i broke r friendship w/out a thght and bc of tht she turned in2 who she was. i was struggling w this guilt 4 monthsss and i ignored my friends and family and tried 2 figure it out myself.  i literally cracked from the guilt. anything she did, anything any1 said abt her i cringed and internally hit myself. i legit lost myself. i wldnt go 2 sleep @ nite 4 hoursss, i barely ate, i cldnt focus in school. it was all this internal struggle and i was stuck w this decision:

      i cldnt help bc she was influential, and if i befriended her again, i wld get dragged in2 things tht i def did NOT want 2 b a part of. but i cldnt j let her sink 2 the lowest of the low like this...

      tht was a few months ago and i decided in the end 2 j distract her from wht she was doing. i texted her @ times when i knew she was going 2 b off doing certian things/meeting w certian ppl. and it worked 4 a little bit. she was clearly glad 2 have my friendship back, and i wasnt thrilled @ who she was now, but i knew i was helping her so i cld get over it. 

      eventually i found out more and more abt her, and she said tht everything she did was bc of herself and her own choices. i still felt a little bit of guilt so i brushed this off and still blamed it on myself. 

      now shes dragging me in2 her drama, and my friends ask why im still associated w her and i cant tell them tht its all my fault and tht they dont rlly know her. i still feel responsible 4 her and rn shes going thru a tough time, and i cant ditch her when i still feel guilty and i tried letting her go. i did. for 2 years, but it j didnt work and every1 is telling me 2 j drop it and leave it, its her fault her decisions and she has 2 find herself. but i cant. 

      she talks abt suicide and death and hurting ppl and ik tht shes 'kidding' but tbh some part of me knows tht shes not. on some level she isnt. and i knowww tht. its all fun and games and joking and kidding until something happens. and im stressed out, and ik things r abt 2 get rocky bc she spent monthsss convincing ppl something abt her and ik its not tru and its abt 2 b revealed and blow up in her face.

      i cant leave her by herself. 

      i need advice plzzzzzzz!!!! i want advice from a perspective of ppl who dont know her....

      [WARNING: I am a homeschooler with so few friends that I can count all of them on one hand. I have never been involved in drama, and I've never had any friend like the person you're describing. All my suggestions are merely what I'd do in a fictional scenario, so take it with a grain of salt, or just don't follow my advice! lolz. Okay. Got that? Great! Let's continue.]

      Wow your friend sounds like a very troubled person. 

      If I were you, I would just ditch her and cut her off completely, regardless of what she might do because of it. Her situation is obviously not my fault, because if you can't get over 1 friend leaving you, you're bound for faliure later in life. And anyone who does things like she does is not worthy of my friendship. Whatever she does is her own choice, and if she can't differentiate good things from bad things in her life, then she's obviously not intelligent enough for my standards. In addition, drama is never good, because it might leave a dark stain on your resume/background check in the future. I would just ditch her, regardless of anything she might do because of it. 

      Then again, the goal here is to help her find redemption, right? So you might want to stay close to her and be her only supporter. Using that influence, you would be able to manipulate her to be a better person and leave behind all the drama she generated for herself. 

      Here's a rule you can follow: if she's a pathological liar (which means she lies for no reason and without evidence to back up her lie) then what you do doesn't matter, because she will end up in the center of her web of lies and illusion with the predators surrounding her. Do you want to be caught with her? No. So get out while you still can. 

      If she is a skilled liar, with evidence to back up her lies, then learn from her and try to convince her to be a better person. If you turn against her, she may get competetive and manipulate the whole school against you. Either way, handle her carefully and make sure she thinks you're on her side completely, especially if she's manipulative or anything like that that could be dangerous to you in the future. 

      If she is just a person who has lost her way completely (and no danger to you), sit her down and try to convince her to be a better person by showing her the outcomes of what she might be planning next. Let her know that you're on her side but she might want to start being a better person because [insert logic, facts, and reason]. 

      Life advice: DON'T GET CAUGHT UP IN SOMEONE ELSE'S DRAMA. Unless you value her friendship so much that you're willing to rake yourself through the coals of gossip just to keep her.  

      And remind yourself that NOTHING SHE DID WAS YOUR FAULT. At all. You think she was affected by your breakup? Nah. She probably brushed it off within a week or 2, then got influenced by something else which really turned her bad and lost. 

      And whenever she mentions suicide and death and hurting people, record it so you'll have evidence to support your future argument in court in the case that she does something bad to herself, you, or anyone else with evidence pointing it to her. 

      (BTW, you should probably know that I don't have a lot of friends (most likely because I'm brutally honest and don't care what others think and prioritise my resume and future over any interpersonal relationship).)

      Good luck and I hope this helped? Eh. Idk. Remember to take it with a grain of salt, or just don't follow my advice.

      - Adeli

      she cant 'turn the whole school' against me, bc she has no​​​​​​​ friends. she lied tht she was leaving school bc she hates it so much and doesnt care anymore wht ppl think of her (biggest lie ever), and i j found out tht after months of her convincing ppl shes leaving, shes actually staying. its gonna b the worst day of her entire life when she walks in next yr on day 1 and shows up. 

      i tried sitting her down and talking 2 her and i swear this is how the convo went:

      me: k we need 2 talk

      her: ya whts up

      me: do u rlly think its right 4 u 2____________?

      her: shut up and dont gimme tht crap. i dont wanna hear it

      me: but still dont u think tht maybe wht ur doing...isnt the best idea?

      her: i frikin dont care anymore. ppl can treat me like **** and i dont care anymore. im done w every1. girls in r school r ******* and im so fed up w them.

      me: i get tht they can b...wtvr sometimes but still...

      her: k im leaving. 

      .*both of us sign off*

      half an hour later i get this from her.  

      "plz dont ever talk 2 me like tht again. ive got so much scorn and hate in my life rn and i cant deal w it anymore. every day is a hard day 4 me and im so done w it. i was lost in my life and then ________________________(things tht she does, ppl, she knows wtvr) and now i know tht i found myself again. im happy w who i am. ppl can try 2 take tht away from me but im done w those ppl. plz dont bring this up again."

      srry if there r any boys on here who hate girl drama lol 

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    • Ok, so no offense, but I kinda just started disliking your friend more after she texted you. At first I was like yeah... I mean, she has a troubled life, so I'll cut her some slack. But then she texted you that thing at the end and... wow. Ok, so YOU didn't say ANYTHING, and she shouldn't be so mad over it. I'm assuming she was going to do something not... great, and all you were trying to do was help her. So I think you should kinda try to distance yourself from her. I mean, you don't have to just ditch her, but... drift away.

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    • AnonymousWikiEditor wrote: ((TRIGGER WARNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!))

      So, I need to get this out. My mom and I were having a conversation about my anxiety tonight (which is getting worse and worse every day because of all the crap going on in my life right now) and she told me that (and I quote) "you should just try to be happy and not worry. Clearly, you aren't if you still are getting anxious about small things." That's like telling someone that has a cold to stop being sick. It doesn't work that way. She doesn't understand that because she doesn't have my issues. And then she told me that "YOU are choosing to be anxious and sad and angry so just think happy for once and it will go away." I hate it when people think that anxiety makes you, like, incapable to be happy or something. IT doesn't. I have def been happy before. And when I finally admitted to her that my OCD is really bad and not mild, her helpful advice was "Just tell the OCD thoughts to go away!" And I felt like screaming what the ****! That is like, the worst mental illness advice I've ever heard! (And I've heard some interesting suggestions so...) People literally don't get anxiety. Does anyone else feel the same way?

      Hi! I'm the one who posted the huge rant about my family's problems and I have OCD and anxiety, too. I feel you so much right now. My brother just got done bashing my OCD "weirdness" and so I came on here to vent. He said practically the same things your mom told you and I told him that he didn't get it and he was all like, "Well, you obviously decided to be OCD. You told your brain to think these things and so now you just need to tell it not to." End of conversation.

      And it just made me so upset!! So just know that I'm here for you and understand, better than most people, what you're going through. I know. It sucks. They really don't get it, do they?

      That's part of why I don't want to tell anybody about my issues...

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

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    • Lexbexrex wrote:
      Ok, so no offense, but I kinda just started disliking your friend more after she texted you. At first I was like yeah... I mean, she has a troubled life, so I'll cut her some slack. But then she texted you that thing at the end and... wow. Ok, so YOU didn't say ANYTHING, and she shouldn't be so mad over it. I'm assuming she was going to do something not... great, and all you were trying to do was help her. So I think you should kinda try to distance yourself from her. I mean, you don't have to just ditch her, but... drift away.

      ik thts wht im sorta leaning towards, like not leaving every chat i have w her or cutting all ties, j like fadingggg....

      k so if she texts does tht mean i shld respond? thghts?

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    • 104.218.157.252 wrote:

      AnonymousWikiEditor wrote: ((TRIGGER WARNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!))

      So, I need to get this out. My mom and I were having a conversation about my anxiety tonight (which is getting worse and worse every day because of all the crap going on in my life right now) and she told me that (and I quote) "you should just try to be happy and not worry. Clearly, you aren't if you still are getting anxious about small things." That's like telling someone that has a cold to stop being sick. It doesn't work that way. She doesn't understand that because she doesn't have my issues. And then she told me that "YOU are choosing to be anxious and sad and angry so just think happy for once and it will go away." I hate it when people think that anxiety makes you, like, incapable to be happy or something. IT doesn't. I have def been happy before. And when I finally admitted to her that my OCD is really bad and not mild, her helpful advice was "Just tell the OCD thoughts to go away!" And I felt like screaming what the ****! That is like, the worst mental illness advice I've ever heard! (And I've heard some interesting suggestions so...) People literally don't get anxiety. Does anyone else feel the same way?

      Hi! I'm the one who posted the huge rant about my family's problems and I have OCD and anxiety, too. I feel you so much right now. My brother just got done bashing my OCD "weirdness" and so I came on here to vent. He said practically the same things your mom told you and I told him that he didn't get it and he was all like, "Well, you obviously decided to be OCD. You told your brain to think these things and so now you just need to tell it not to." End of conversation.

      And it just made me so upset!! So just know that I'm here for you and understand, better than most people, what you're going through. I know. It sucks. They really don't get it, do they?

      That's part of why I don't want to tell anybody about my issues...

      --Foster-Keefe-For-The-Wynn

      Some people don’t get anxiety so much that it just becomes funny

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    • Keefe-Makes-No-Sense-en wrote:
      204.195.19.176 wrote:
      Keefe-Makes-No-Sense-en wrote:
      oh wait nvm j read the top lol

      k so i desperatly need advice-

      .*** MAY CONTAIN TRGGERS

      When I was younger I had a friend. She was not-so popular (not tht it matters j trying 2 illustrate her 2 u guys), had an i-dont-care-anyways attitude, super creative, fun and sweet. So i became friends w her, nothing wrong. problem was, she belonged 2 a group of friends. there is NOTHING wrong w having friends or belonging in a group, its j tht these girls were notorious 4 shutting ppl out and sticking 2 themselves. so when i became friends w this girl it sorta became an issue...

      a few months later, no drama-> became super good friends w this girl; we hung out, ft every nite etc, then we made a pact abt something (not related wht it was abt) and she went behind my back and broke it. i heard abt it and bc i didnt believe it, i went 2 look 4 myself and it was tru. i was crushed. so i decided 2 shut her out. wether this was right or wrong idk anymore, but ths wht i did.

      and it lasted 2 yrs.

      she never apologized once. 

      i moved on, made new friends, grew more emotionally mature etc. but i still remembered how good friends we were and etc. we ended up going the same path and ended up in the same school. she changed, i changed, so we sorta started 2 rebuild r friendship. then i found out...(so dramatic lol)

      she was doing things tht i wld not dream of doing @ r age, and was j doing things tht were completely unacceptable in r community and in any society. 

      i will say tho, she has a rlly rlly hard life. her family is emotionally broken, she is the youngest, and she has special needs siblings who r in their 20's and still live @ home, depriving her of attention tht she needs. she sorta 'gets on by herself' if u know wht i mean. 

      anyways so here she was years later, a totally new person, who was the subject of gossip, and scorned by every1. 

      i was shockeddddd. wht did she become? and why did/does she do this? 

      then it hit me. it was my fault. i broke r friendship w/out a thght and bc of tht she turned in2 who she was. i was struggling w this guilt 4 monthsss and i ignored my friends and family and tried 2 figure it out myself.  i literally cracked from the guilt. anything she did, anything any1 said abt her i cringed and internally hit myself. i legit lost myself. i wldnt go 2 sleep @ nite 4 hoursss, i barely ate, i cldnt focus in school. it was all this internal struggle and i was stuck w this decision:

      i cldnt help bc she was influential, and if i befriended her again, i wld get dragged in2 things tht i def did NOT want 2 b a part of. but i cldnt j let her sink 2 the lowest of the low like this...

      tht was a few months ago and i decided in the end 2 j distract her from wht she was doing. i texted her @ times when i knew she was going 2 b off doing certian things/meeting w certian ppl. and it worked 4 a little bit. she was clearly glad 2 have my friendship back, and i wasnt thrilled @ who she was now, but i knew i was helping her so i cld get over it. 

      eventually i found out more and more abt her, and she said tht everything she did was bc of herself and her own choices. i still felt a little bit of guilt so i brushed this off and still blamed it on myself. 

      now shes dragging me in2 her drama, and my friends ask why im still associated w her and i cant tell them tht its all my fault and tht they dont rlly know her. i still feel responsible 4 her and rn shes going thru a tough time, and i cant ditch her when i still feel guilty and i tried letting her go. i did. for 2 years, but it j didnt work and every1 is telling me 2 j drop it and leave it, its her fault her decisions and she has 2 find herself. but i cant. 

      she talks abt suicide and death and hurting ppl and ik tht shes 'kidding' but tbh some part of me knows tht shes not. on some level she isnt. and i knowww tht. its all fun and games and joking and kidding until something happens. and im stressed out, and ik things r abt 2 get rocky bc she spent monthsss convincing ppl something abt her and ik its not tru and its abt 2 b revealed and blow up in her face.

      i cant leave her by herself. 

      i need advice plzzzzzzz!!!! i want advice from a perspective of ppl who dont know her....

      [WARNING: I am a homeschooler with so few friends that I can count all of them on one hand. I have never been involved in drama, and I've never had any friend like the person you're describing. All my suggestions are merely what I'd do in a fictional scenario, so take it with a grain of salt, or just don't follow my advice! lolz. Okay. Got that? Great! Let's continue.]Wow your friend sounds like a very troubled person. 

      If I were y