Board Thread:Clubs/@comment-43432691-20191126194337/@comment-44426813-20200114023028

Fitzforever wrote: I just need to write what I am feeling. WARNING THIS WILLL SOUND CHILDISH!

Every day I feel like I am cused. I am socially awakward, and I have said to many things that I regret later. I have no one to talk to because my friend hates me (and he lives in a different city) and my other friends are younger than me so they don't understand me. My crush dosen't know I exist. My friend that is a girl wont talk to me because of rumors at school, ( I am a boy) And I am homeschooled witch is exhausting because I don't know that many people. My brothers tease me about the "girl" books I am reading like Keeper of the Lost Cities and Let The Sky Fall.

I feel so alone dispite the fact that I have a couple friends, they are still to young to understand what I am feeling. Okay, things like that are common for people. I'm socially awkward, and I never have the right thing to put into a conversation. People are constantly talking behind my backs, and the "popular girls" don't really seem to like me, even if were "friends." I like books that revolve around boys, and I like names that are mainly boy names. My advice is to just be who you are. Even if you have "weird" things you like to do. Things seem to land right on you, and sometimes things go wrong. It's okay.

On a sadder note, one of my dogs just died, and I'm not sure how to feel. I have this weird emotional dissorder thing were I can't fit the right emotoin into the action. Right now I feel confused, frusterated, happy, and deppressed. And I can't tell my "friends" becuase they wouldn't understand. Nobody really notices this, which makes it really hard for them to think I'm telling the truth.