Board Thread:Clubs/@comment-38207171-20190628201746/@comment-109.161.170.183-20200214095012

Okay, so I'm still young enough to go to the youth at our church. We've got a new teacher for this month, and she said that God cared about everyone one of us. That struck a chord. As did when she said that people my age are doubting, and that's alright. "It's not like we should go blindly trusting whatever someone tells you."

Later we play a "game" trying to name the books in the Bible. And I don't know the bible very well. I haven't read it all. But so many kids have. They know it like the back of their hand. She commented on someone, "I know that you read the Bible." For some reason that really stung, and I felt so stupid. I asked to go to the bathroom, and I cried as silently as possible. I struggle with my faith. I believe God is there, but I wonder so much about everything, whether he really loves me at all. Everyone says he does. But it doesn't feel like it.

Just, if anyone actually read that, could you pray? In the end it's all up to me to do make the decisions. I usually feel better if I know someone cares. I hope someone does.

-Lady Sassyfur