Talk:Keefe and Sophie/@comment-173.225.145.200-20191027212615/@comment-43447200-20191028012018

First, I can understand what your going through, I have depression and anxiety and have many close family members that have other mental problems as well. The first thing is, don't lie to yourself. It makes you confused and you keep going through all of the "what ifs what ifs what ifs". I know what its like to be in those dark places. Turn to those you trust. Second, even if you do find out that you have a certain type of mental illness, it won't burden other people. People love being needed. I've learned that medication is really helpful. I hid it for a while, but that makes it feel so much worse, like stones upon stones just making you feel heavier and heavier. Once you tell someone else, it makes it feel so much better, lighter even. Though its not gone. I had to go to a doctor and they were all REALLY nice about it. I got a prescription for medication and went gluten-free. Everything gets better eventually, sometimes it gets worse, Keefe says that things have to get worse before they get better. Whenever I'm in those dark places, its when I haven't taken my meds, or keep putting myself down. If we don't love ourselves, thats the first step into a room full of darkness. Learn to love yourself. Eventually everything will come into place. But, know that you are loved! Even though we don't know you in real life, your loved by your family, and your friends, and our God. Don't question wether its reality or not. If its real, its real. Its better to play it safe than sorry. The biggest thing also comes down to trust. Trust yourself most of all. Your body and mind will let you know if somethings wrong. Don't listen to whatever your angry side is telling you. If you catch yourself thinking "I can't anymore, I won't, I'm stupid," or especially "I shouldn't be here" Just. Stop. Stop yourself. For us, for you, for your family, your friends. You are special. I don't know what your religion is, but here's one of my favorite verses:  But the Lord said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart. 1 Samuel 16:17     Just don't lie to yourself, and trust. If you feel yourself tilting, reach out to anyone. Thanks for trusting us enough for telling us this. It is NOT a burden, to you, us, or anyone. Its just something that lots of people go through, in different circumstances, times, and ways. Its hard to navigate the world, don't make it hard to navigate yourself.

~Love, TeamFosterKeefee