Thread:CustardBursts/@comment-37611621-20190811162353/@comment-37611621-20190811192759

I don’t understand. I’ve told you so many times how I was manipulated into doing these things and it’s my naive brain that’s to blame. You don’t even give a care that I was manipulated, or you at least don’t show it. Why can’t you just realize who did this to you? Who really hates you? You seem to almost praise this person who I will not name publicly. I don’t get it. I joined a rant server a few minutes after it was created because I was slightly annoyed with something that you had done, but the manipulated had blackmailed me into saying things on the server. You obviously realized how I shouldn’t have said those things and so I got angry. I shouldn’t have gotten angry but I was fricking manipulated into saying that you were a bad admin. The other person immediately realized what was going down and deleted the server. I didn’t say any more bad things about you after that. This was months ago. I don’t understand why you think I did other bad things. That was the only bad thing that I had done. Another user convinced me to write a letter to you telling you how to improve and possibly demote yourself but the demotion was not intentional.

I’ve been crying every time I see one of my messages to you when you haven’t responded. Every time you tell someone your accidentally misinterpreted version of what happened, more and more people begin ignoring me and pretending that I don’t exist. I don’t... understand why you think that I deserve this. You told me that that thread wasn’t about me, but it was. Why did you and the other server owners target me when you figured out what we were ranting about? People need rant space, Eva. Maybe you’re a perfect human being. Maybe you can just let all of your anger go away. Other people can’t. I can’t. All of the people in that rant server can’t. We needed a place to say “this person is making me infuriated and here’s why”. To scream into our pillows as an analogy.

I tried to let it go but every time the user hurt someone else, the feelings all came back. I didn’t know what to do, so I ranted. It made all of the bottled up feelings drain and made it so that I could keep going on. I don’t understand how ranting is cyberbullying.