User blog:Some1New/hey

Hi there.

As some of you may know, I went on a bit of a hiatus.

The thing is

this past school year just really sucked. a lot.

kinda sounds generic but it's the truth.

like, I've had bad school years, but this one takes the cake for being the worst year of my life.

that may sound like an exaggeration

but considering the state of mind it left me in

it really isn't.

so, I decided to take a break from a few things I had associated with the school year.

one of those things was fandom.

I wasn't thinking right when I left.

hence why my profile and bio were the way they were.

then i left for a couple of weeks.

didn't think much of it.

still was in a bad state of mind.

got worse but

eventually, I told my parents (and am now seeing a therapist every week 👍 doing good people).

i still spend a lot of time on my computer which eventually led to coming back here. it kinda feels like coming home ngl.

i soon found myself staring at my profile, wondering what had happened to me. i wanted to change it, but remembered i had disabled my account. so i just left it.

and then, sort of out of habit, i checked my message wall. to see if someone had told me something important after i had disabled my account.

and  oh boy, were there messages !

I really wasn't expecting anyone to notice

or to care.

cuz that's just how I think.

cuz that's just how it was at school.

every. single. day.

but all your (i don't have time to specify) messages are probably the kindest, most wholesome, most heartwarming messages anyone has ever said to me this year.

they were words i really needed to hear.

they made me choke up

because i genuinely couldn't believe how many people cared.

you all made my summer and helped me remember there are nice people, somewhere.

so thanks.

I didn't mean to scare any of you. but I did. and I'm sorry.

but I'm doing better. At least for now.

while I still have the rest of summer, I think I'll be fine. although i'm back, I won't be too active here, just cuz i have a whole lot of other priorities now instead of books and kotlc (what are they you might ask). but um

thanks

i sincerely mean it.

i'm fine. i'm back. i love y'all. let's do this, gamers. 💕