Thread:Lowkey done with life/@comment-37869175-20181224194711/@comment-37869175-20190108152440

@BlackSwanSRM No, it's fine... I just kinda realized after I sent that that you probably remained anonymous for a reason. I'm sorry, I probably shouldn't have revealed who you were, it just... surprised me. Sorry.

@Loki

Oof, okay, this is probably going to turn out really long, but let's see...

Well,  it really kinda matters what religion you were in, and I'm not exactly sure I quite understand, like did you go to a Christian church? Were you exposed to a lot of Christian beliefs? Because Christianity is very different from Islam, and in many more ways than just the Bible.

But ignoring all that...

We were made, as human beings, to love God. To experience His love. To know Him, to see His face. Really, in a way, we're not made for this earth at all. We're made for heaven. We're made for eternal happiness, to see God as He truly is. This life is more like a test, not to say it doesn't matter. And God wants us to be happy and know love, both in this life and in the next, and the only way to experience true happiness, true love, is from the source of both- God.

The problem is, God gave us free will.

He gave us the freedom to choose.

We can choose evil, if we want. We can choose to go to hell, if we want.

God gave us free will because He wanted us to love Him freely, having a choice to love Him, not to be forced to, which really isn't love at all.

So people will undeniably choose evil. And sometimes suffering will result from that.

But God gives us the tools to deal with it, if we choose to rely on Him.

He gave me the tools to deal with depression, suicide, and self-harm. I know that only thing that's kept me alive at this point is God.

He gave me the tools to deal with my dad having cancer.

He gave me strength. He gave me hope. He gave me a reason to persevere. He gave me a purpose, a meaning. He gave me a love so strong and fierce and pure and infinite, I knew it could overcome anything.

And sometimes suffering will just happen. Yeah, maybe a baby will die, having done nothing wrong. Maybe the baby is in heaven, enjoying the eternal happiness of God, which is better than anything else. Maybe their family is devastated- He will give them the tools to keep going, if only they choose to use them. God's not always going to intervene directly, that's not how He created the world to be. But He is there for us. He wants to help us, if not directly. If not by a miracle or something. He's talking to us, if only we care to listen.

Those children you saw in the streets? When you prayed for them, no, God's not just going to go ''poof! ''Yay, no more poverty! Because that's not the way the world works. But maybe He was trying to tell you that you could be the one to help them, and He would show you how. Suffering also sometimes helps us grow us people. It help us to see things in a new light. It helps us to change our direction. It helps us to appreciate the happiness. If everything was only happy all the time, no problems, no suffering, wouldn't life be kind of... meaningless? Empty? All I know is that if some horrible things hadn't happened to me, I definitely wouldn't have the happiness that I have now. I wouldn't have come to know God.

God literally died for us. He became human, He became a baby, he entered into our suffering, just so He could end it. Maybe He didn't end it for us in this life, but He gave us the power to become children of God and to enter into heaven and eternal happiness.

Just think about that for a second.

God- infinite, eternal, perfect- degraded Himself so much as to become a human baby who had to be taken care of. Then He was whipped and persecuted and carried a cross for us, and then died on it, just so that we might find love and happiness.

Just think about that for a second.

God died for us- for you- just so that you could be happy, even though He knew you might never love Him back.

I'm pretty confident that a God like that won't abandon me.

How did the universe start? By the power of God. Simple as that. It was probably through the Big Bang (it was actually a Catholic preist who came up with that theory), but it still happened through the will of God.

Your purpose is to "love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind, and with all your soul." That's where true happiness comes from. That's where true freedom comes from. From the foremost priority is your life being loving a being that is all-good, perfect, infinite, and will never change. There's nothing that you can rely on as much as that. There's nothing on this earth that can satisfy you as much as that- because it's impossible for something finite and imperfect to be more fulfilling than something infinite and perfect. God wants you to know that and to feel that, but he's not going to force it on you. He wants you to know that you ar never alone, that you are never abandoned, that you are loved. It hurts Him to know that you're ignored his call to you. He's waiting for you to pick up.

You said you wanted to become something bigger than just yourself- by loving God you'' are. ''You are becoming His child. And to me, that seems like a lot more than just being a tiny human. And even if you never did love Him, to God, we are all equal. He know all of us perfectly, and He loves all of us perfectly. So to God, you are not just a speck in a tiny universe. You are His child.

It's not always easy to love God. It's not always fun and happy. But it's worth it. It's so worth it. If I couldn't do anything else in life, I know that would still be my biggest accomplishment- loving God. And it's the most amazing thing. When I truly saw God for the first time, I felt like I had always been lost, though maybe I hadn't know it, and then I was suddenly found. I suddenly knew who I was, who I was supposed to be. What it was to feel ''alive. ''I knew how it felt to be infinitely loved. I knew I had something to guide me, something to show me how to get though this life. Something that would never abandon me, and that was God.

If you want proof that God exist, please watch that video I showed you. And I just know that this world wasn't a mistake, just a chance happening. I know that the love I feel is real, and it feels realer thatn anything I've ever known. I can know that God is real simply by looking at His universe- it's there. In the stars, in the animals, in the grass under my feet. In me, as a human.

I just... I don't know how to show any of this to someone who has lost faith. I don't know how to show you how beautiful this is. I know BlackSwanSRM will do better, she seems to have all the words. But please, just promise me... you'll try to see. Because it makes me so, so sad to know that there are still so many people who don't know what it is to be truly alive.