Board Thread:Clubs/@comment-43432691-20191126194337/@comment-44344165-20200113041539

I’m really sorry I haven’t been online y’all. But I really need to rant here.

My mom and dad (mostly my dad) are cracking down extremely hard on my school and chores. My sister has gotten extremely nasty to me since her secret boyfriend broke up with her. (She told me and I kept it secret then she told me she broke up with him) Now I also have been getting farther away from myself. Every single day I’m putting on a fake smile and optimistic attitude then I go into my room and want to cry. I sound very cliche I know. I can’t sleep at night, I’ll either wake up from a nightmare or not be able to sleep. I also feel a constant weight just pounding down on my shoulders, and my insides feel like they’re turning into liquid. I’ve also been getting random sadness spikes where I get really sad all the sudden and think about my dog and grandfather. I can’t tell my parents or my sister anything because my parents are straight boomers who don’t think emotions are crap, and my sister would just spill everything to my parents. I’ve been trying to lean on my best friend but it’s gotten hard and I just feel closer off.