Board Thread:Clubs/@comment-37611621-20190805025427/@comment-67.201.160.225-20190805233101

My sister is a total jerk. She's just so mean and manipulating. She wanted me to go to the beach with her, but I refused, so she just started ranting at me about how I'm going to be fat and ugly and die if I don't go outside and get fresh air. I literally have a BMI of 19.0, but of course since she has a BMI of 18.6 she thinks she can be judgemental about my weight. She's a self-centered bully both at school AND at home. In her grade, everyone copies her and follows her lead and she started targeting one girl in games, flaunting the fact that all her clothes are expensive sports brands, talking behind the other girl's back, excluding her from her lunch table, and making derogatory comments about her diet, her sports, her clothes, and her favourite authors, musicians, colors, etc. I was bullied in a similar way when I was her age (I was bullied mostly for my social awkwardness and love of books and school, though) so it really hurts to see my parents completely trusting the bully's point of view even after being so angry with the school when I was bullied. I'm now at a dfferent school than my bully, but my sister has filled in her place. She's capable of making me feel overweight, ugly, dumb, and un-athletic, all of which are things that I have always worked on and pride myself on. My sister can be charming and my best friend at times, but she'll turn around like a backstabber and spread rumours about me in a heartbeat. I often try to avoid classmates at my school who have siblings that are friends of my sister just because they hear such awful and untrue things about me. I have to stop myself from questioning whether my friends really like me because my sister tells me everything I do wrong. It hurts, but I can't stop it. My parents just pass it off as sibling rivalry and assume that I couldn't be bullied by my younger sister. And now I find myself constantly judging myself all the time, worrying about my weight, that my 97% average in school isn't good enough to get me into the very top schools, that I only take sports classes twice a week instead of three times like she does, that everyone thinks I'm a nerd because I participate in school plays, that I can't carry any books around with me, that my skin is too pale, that my acne is awful, that my feet are too big, that my nose is too wide, that my hair is too long, that my nails need to be longer, that my handwriting needs to be neater, that I need to be able to cook pancakes as well as she does and that my creme caramel will never compare to her pancakes, that I need more friends, that I need to buy more expensive clothes, that Old Navy and MyStyle are stupid, that I need to text my friends more, that I need to stay off my phone more, that I shouldn't like books as much as I do, that I should have smaller hips, that my eyebrows should be thinner, that my green eyes are much less prettier than her blue ones, that my hair should be pearl-blonde instead of gold-blonde, that I shouldn't need contact lenses, that I should speak louder, that the lunula of my nail should be bigger, that my arms should be thinner, that my watch shouldn't be black, that I should wear more red instead of blue, that I should wear more scoop-necked shirts instead of v-necks, that my sneakers should be nike and not off-brand, that my math mark should be higher than 94%, that I should be able to unicycle a kilometer like she can rather than 3/4 of a kilometer, that my bike shouldn't be blue, and millions of other little things that she judges me on. She's an absolute jerk, bully, and backstabber, but as soon as she stops being mean to someone, that person will forget all about it and willingly be her best friend, just as I likely will when I wake up tomorrow morning, just to make the mistake of angering her again.