Thread:72.205.23.158/@comment-173.72.133.129-20191211044312/@comment-72.205.23.158-20191213155329

((Actually, I would have been able to now, but if I can't then that's fine XD))

Aww... Yeahhhhh ik life is a lot for you honestly when I started getting upset it was probably pretty selfish... XD...... Idek what I told her anymore cause I lost the email XD... stupid me... always losing things... Um... please please PLEASE don't be mad at me don't hate me but I todl her that you were going through something hard and to send you Bible verses and stuff but I don't think I specified anything really.. plz don't hate me... Aww yeah... u do cope pretty well (: Katniss... it's not fading because of you.. or because of Ethan... though stuff that has been happening lately has hurt me and definitely made it harder to see the other side... (u might understand what I mean by that when u read the letter?) But... I'm mostly fading because of... me... The way I respond to things... the way I let things get to me, and hurt me... I'm hurting myself... You're right... That's not fair... and even though u do effect it you also make it better so... even if sometimes stuff you do make it fade that's just from silly misunderstandings on my part you also bring the light back in... a lot... but... I don't understand... how come it feels like you've been ignoring me since Jocelyn came? I mean... see you probably haven't even been purposefully doing it and it's not even your fault I know your having a lot of people who want your attention and rn I should probably be the least of your concerns but.... idk... Your struggles don't make ME fade they make you ​​​​​​... not fade but they hurt you and when you get hurt it hurts me because... I wove you so much I don't like it when your upset but don't worry that's not your fault... life's not fair.. maybe I just need to suck it up a little more? Hide it a little better? ... *sigh*... 'Let me guess, he isn't the one hurting you, it's not his fault.' "I'm just sad because I really like you; more than I've liked anyone in a long time. Tonight I got slapped in the face with the reality that I'll never be able to call you mine and that it isn't a very big deal to you." Every word in that sentence is true for me. I can let go of him one finger at a time, but the feeling of hurt will still be there for just a little bit longer... School? Sure, that was stressing me earlier this week but that's over now... well, no it's not, it's over for NOW, but it will probably get me later today and Monday because I'm starting something for Writing that's going to take a big chunk of my time... *sigh*... Aww I'm sorry... Yikes that's not good... )))))): I gtg maybe talk later... don't get in trouble...

-Black Panther