User blog:ItsACheeseSandwich/My Awkward Self

Soo...

I thought I'd just talk about some weird subjects of me. Because I know nobody will listen if I ask them in real life, and I'd be to shy to say any of it anyways.

First off, I feel like  I can admit something that is actually super shameful. But try not to judge me. So, I think I have have made Fitz a monster in my family. When I first read KOTLC, I sorta didn't like Fitz. He's too perfect. I shared this with my family, along with Sophie's love interest in him (love interest is somehow an unlikeable subject in our family), and they immediatley disliked him. Then it blew up, and soon enough nobody likes Fitz, even though they've never met him, and he's a totally nice guy.

Now I gotta confess something. I know KOTLC has become something of a romance novel, and I'm super ashamed to admit that though I'm a SoKeefe shipper, I still sort of enjoyed it? Because, hey, crushes? And, in the real world, off of Fandom, I hide that. *awkwardness* Yeah, I know. Either by this point you think (a) I'm a total loser, (b) I'm just like you, OR (c) I share WAY too much on the net. A+C are probably true. Yeah, I can tell you're trying not to judge, but you're probably failing.

Like i said, I share too much on the net, but I need serious advice on this one.

I'm going into middle school, and I. Need. Help. I'm in a gifted program, but my best friends aren't, and that means I'll see them even less than usual, resulting in us not being friends anymore! One of my friends no longer hangs out with me anyways, and it's super worrisome. Then again, I might be over reacting (I do worry a lot), but still! If you are in middle school and have dealt with this, HELP ME!!! *panic attack*

In the end, I don't know why I post this stuff on the web (should I really, there are bad people out there), but I know that you guys are the only ones I can talk to because I'm introverted, I overthink things, and I'm CRAZY lonely.